Knowing First Hand

 
    Reece, Beagle sent me an email letting me know that more financial contributions had cleared for being
able to send to me. I felt that I might call this, or emphasize (for one thing) "Knowing first hand". This is
how it feels to me, that is to "really feel" "be the one" etc. To "be there".
 
For those of you who may not have yet known of my situation "Janet" had mentioned here that I was going
through a real physical "challenge" with my "cansor". Both in the physical and the finacial nature. Reece
started a donation fund to  "help out". I was and still am with no insurance, out of work and nothing coming in.
I'm not the only one who has seen some hard times here and feel compelt to display as much as I can
about how things feel and how much of a difference things make things like yours prayers, friendship,
contributions and many other things.
 
   I had already recieved some money from eirlier contributions. At that time it was like "what am I
going to do?" That is about the only way to put it because "that" (was) how it felt. Looking at things
from that perspective that first finacial contribution was (in my case) a "miracle" And I don't use
that word lightly or certainly wouldn't want it to sound that way, or clishe. As things were happening
with some doctors and people it was like "things need to be done" tests need to be made"
surgery is needed to install feeding tubes and a device for doing Chemo and other things.
 
  O.K at least I got some financial help from some wonderful people here and the amount of un needed
stress (or at least lighten the load) from that was unsurmount in what it did for me. Then things got
better with the doctors as the hospital community service people jumped in and started out things
with finacial aid. (that was also unexpected). I had ie surgery a feeding tube put in today, got to get
(for one thing) my wieight up, I got down to 100 pounds.
 
   So, in so many ways things that I thought I would never have seen, I have.  It amazes me that even
up to my point in my journey that so many good things have happened and "things" overcome.
I feel that so many here are a part of that and the reason for it. This comunnity has given me "things"
that inspire me as well in such ways as in motivation and inspriation. Things that are good for people
in writing and such things, things for musicians. (though not limited to).
 
   Well, today I sat here again thinking about what lies ahead, part of it being financial as the money
goes out but nothing in and I get an email from Reece. (I applyed for tenn care and hopfuly disability).
The thing is that lately through all this I have been trying to stay and be positive. Planning on
playing in a band again after about 20 years out of doing that. And there is an excitement about
doing that.
 
  However there is allways some type of stress or concern when things get tight that "bump in"
and become sort of a killjoy when looking forward to things to come. I think that "these contributions"
from you all come in the form of miracles because. Things "do happen". Not to say that all things will
but can and are possible. Maybe this could be called a "great thing" but to me it is a miricle becaues
I see and feel firsthand the "effect".
 
  My testimoney might be such that things are feeling different now, Not to sort of "maintain"
life as it is but to inhance it. To be honest with myself I might wonder if for eaxample that I'd
ever write a song , or a number of songs that I'd be proud of. I mean like in "really be happy"
with them.
 
  That's what I mean by "knowing first hand" I feel really good about so many things and
look forward to things to come. I've never had this kind of people in my life, I've got
great freinds and loved ones. I think that the addition of so many of you wonderful
people here have (since I first came to the forums) impacted my life. That is why that I
might sound like (OK youve said it all yadayadayada),
 
   But I wanted to come back and say thank you all again so much because the things
you've done and still are doing have and do make such a difference. This puts me in a
sort of situation as I don't want to sound condensating "if thats the right word"
but It is important "in my heart" that you know just how much that I appreciate
everything.
 
   I look forward to getting back into writing and posting music too, That may be a while
yet. In the meantime I'll keep checking out your post's and songs.
 
 
 
  
   
 
 
 
 
 

Me too.

Jimmy, you are an inspiration.

best regards,
mike

"It amazes me that even up to my point in my journey that so many good things have happened and "things" overcome."


It's called karma, Jimmy. Keep up the fight, buddy.

Hang tough friend.

Thinking of you Jimmy.

Praying for your recovery, Jimmy.  We're all here for you.