Highs and Lows

Hi,

This poured out of me tonight.

http://snd.sc/qr3sT3

Those that know me will know that my son has been living with chronic kidney failure for the last few years. He went into hospital for a transplant about 2 weeks ago and it was all looking great until Sunday when he suddenly needed emergency surgery. It turned out he had massive internal bleeding and they had to remove the kidney. He's still under sedation in hospital, his mum is there just now and I'm at home looking after his little brother. I sat down at the piano and this kind of just came out.

The outlook is positive - he is now stable and if everything goes according to plan he will be no worse off after his ordeal than he was before it.

I'm not writing this to receive outpourings of sympathy but sometimes there are things that just need to be shared.

Thanks in advance for listening.

Terry.

Thanks Rik - both for the comments on the music and the positive wishes. I appreciate it.

Cheers,
Terry.

Yes, lovely tune there and yes, still I hear the stress in it, although it's a lovely tune.

Perhaps the doctors should be looked at also, with a somewhat glaring eye also. Of course to me, they perhaps should know more about what they are doing, than perhaps they are doing. But not knowing all the issues surrounding your son, I hope the best for your son, and as for your piano playing, hey, I may just be getting a little bit jealous there.

Second opinions though may be needed on both accounts.

Sorry I couldn't get to this yesterday.  It's hauntingly beautiful.  I just love it when we can express our emotions at the piano like you've done so amazingly here.  I hope things go well for your son, and soon.  Let us know. 

Hi,

@Janet - I was going to sit down and play some thumping Beethoven (which is almost always cathartic!) but writing this was even better. Thanks for the comments - it's the first time anything I've written has been called 'hauntingly beautiful'. ;-)

@John - thanks. This was very cathartic - I just need to actually let my son hear it now (he wants to) when he's a bit better.

Thanks to everyone for your well wishes - he is starting to look and feel a bit more human now and is hopefully well on the road to recovery.

Cheers,
Terry.

@chasmcg - thanks!

My son is coming to terms with what has happened and is recuperating well. Thanks for all your positive wishes, thoughts, and prayers.

Cheers,
Terry.

Janet


That's good to hear, Terry.  I was just wondering about him earlier today.  Does it look like the transplant will be happening any time soon? 

No transplant soon. Because the kidney they had transplanted needed to be removed he's now got to go back on the waiting list for another kidney so it's back on dialysis for the foreseeable future. Essentially he's gone through hell just to end up back at square one.


Terry.

Janet


Oh, I'm sorry...I didn't understand that it was the new kidney they had to remove.  Well, that's too bad.  Hopefully there will be another one available soon. 

Yea, I'm sorry. I didn't make it clear in the original post - I was not really firing on all cylinders at the time.

Haunting bit  of melancholy, Terry. Best of luck with your boy.

Hi,

@jamesyoyo - yes it is quite melancholic. I hope it hasn't made anyone depressed while listening! Thanks for your comments and well wishes.

@Wookiee - thanks, I'm taking that as a compliment! Thanks for having us in your thoughts.

Thanks to everyone for listening and commenting, and especially for your thoughts and prayers, it really means a lot. We're hoping he'll be home by Friday because he is recuperating really well and he even seems to have come to terms quite quickly with the fact that the transplant failed, although we'll be keeping an eye on his emotional state as closely as possible with a 16 yr old.

I've had more comments about the emotions this track evokes than with any other track I've posted and I guess it's because it's not just a sad/stressed/poignant piece of music standing by itself but because there's a sad story (which is still ongoing) behind the 'inspiration' (or desperation ;-) ) of it.

Thanks again,
Terry.