Cutting pine trees and cancer... <Update>

jbow
 
 
Maybe this afternoon I'll get started, sometimes I just lose the "want to". Need to keep going though.
 

 
I don't want to change the focus from you with this long story below; but you touched a chord with me as I too found a way to "keep going" and your post above moved me.
 
In 2012 I found I had salivary gland cancer; it had been misdiagnosed since 2005 or before. At this point, it was massive (~3-5") and the surgeon told me he could cut off my face in a 13 hour surgery to save my life (of course there would be restorative surgery that would follow).
 
I said no and made preparations to die. I had already quit playing guitar for over a year because of the constant bleeding and it was impossible to sing. I "died" in Jan 2013. I was in ICU for over 6 days and they brought me back over and over (heart stoppage from massive blood loss). Another doctor attempted a punt, and blitzed me with radiation for three days. The bleeding stopped and when I woke up he talked me into another 7 weeks of daily radiation in the face to shrink the tumor. I lost my hair, taste, smell, eyesight, 80 pounds...they gave me one year (until Easter 2014) but that was what we signed on for...enough time to get affairs in order.
 
Easter came this year and I kept getting better, cutting down my own trees, some 25 of them. Then I got cocky at the end of August and shattered my hip socket.
 
Now I was forced to sit in the studio again. I hadn't played guitar or written a song in over three years. I had only done some small freebies for friends e.g. karaoke stuff.
 
Then it all came back. Some blisters on my fingers, then a new song, then some new productions from old friends...now the music won't leave my head day or night, just like it used to be. I made it back to "me" again and I am so happy!
 
So, yeah, like you say, there is a deep need to keep going :)
 
I will pray for you and your wife.