Dave -
 
This is my last post to/about you.  It is intended to be helpful, so please take it that way.
 
The best advice (that you didn't directly ask for) I can offer to you is that you take some time away from here to sort thru your issues, whatever they are.  The folks here are good people.  A large number of us have years worth understanding between us - meaning we know temperaments, sense of humor, personal trials, etc.  The result is mutual trust and respect.  That is NOT to say we necessarily always agree, share the same tastes in music or humor, or even have great fondness for each other across the board.  The trust and respect remain intact though.  Above all, this is a safe place to escape life with a group of folks that share a common interest or two.
 
Trust and respect are earned.  When you pZss away what you've earned, it's twice as hard to regain them.  Temper tantrums, personal attacks, verbal vendettas ... who has the desire or time to deal with those things in a place they hang out to get away from them?  Seriously.
 
Relax dude.  Work out your problems and give it another try down the road.  Or, if this environment isn't your cuppa tea, find one that is.
 
The more you shZt in the middle of the room, the harder you'll be pushed out.  Try a bit of humility and sincerity instead.
 
Best of luck to you, Dave.  I genuinely hope you find peace wherever you end up.