Hey Comfortably PITA Numb.
Welcome to you. Not too concerned about your premature stuff. Fasting, sentient vegetarian diet, some yoga exercises to balance nerve connections will chill out everything, but what is happening with the lung failure condition?
Sonar is rough for me still, and have avoided much of the required learning curve to master it.
Others can testify better than me that you can take a musical dream from conception to publication in Sonar and there will be no quality advantage you missed out on by not using something else. The program is elegant, solid, reliable (if not a bit complex and noisy trying to get everything on screen at one time...just where I am at with it)
Time of the one button record simplicity onto magnetic tape is a fried relic unfortunately.
Hang in there though. Sonar will deliver everything you are trying to do way better than what was available in simpler times.
John