And I was gonna ask where the days are when Im not upset for some reason.  I have NO reason to get that way but it seems to find me every day for some reason.

Sorry to hear your having probs J.

I know somewhere down the road it will be looking better and that's what keeps us/me going, HOPE

Never no reason. Although today, I was making a batch of cookies, and had the dough on the pan, and just as I was about to slip them in the oven, I dropped the pan. 
I could've destroyed every living thing within 15ft of me (srry, mom), and then burned my house down at that moment.

Torturing my body helps me usually. Or actually, not having physical exercise for too long makes me like that.
The bodys own "morphines", endorfins, do their magic when you sweat and raise your pulse.

craigb

IK Obi


Keep your head up J.

Wouldn't that be uncomfortable?

after 4hrs there is a number to call.....

Mystic38

craigb

IK Obi


Keep your head up J.

Wouldn't that be uncomfortable?

after 4hrs there is a number to call.....

If you can still breath after 4 hours.

Karyn

Mystic38

craigb

IK Obi


Keep your head up J.

Wouldn't that be uncomfortable?

after 4hrs there is a number to call.....

If you can still breath after 4 hours.

Maybe he meant J's making the call?

J, I'm probably late to the party but I just had to chime in here because...well, I this is something that never happens to me. Can you believe that? As physical as I can be, I NEVER wake up in a bad mood or get bent for no reason. There may be something small that sets me off, but there's always a legit reason.

I think I'm never mad for no reason because I remove negativity and animosity on a daily basis. The things in my world that bother me, are instantly eliminated. People, places, things, habits, anything that makes me upset is just removed. And once I turn and walk, there's no going back.

I think (not speaking for you) that people get this way when they have lots of things in their lives that are always negative. Just about all of my friends are not happily married. So you know they act like someone poo'd in their Cheerios on a daily basis. Some are not happy with their jobs yet they are forced to stay there because let's face it...in this economy, if you have a job you're lucky.

So maybe you may need to take a good look at yourself, your life, your surroundings etc? Maybe there are things that are buried deep inside of you that are making you angry and quite possibly, it's time to eliminate or at least alter some of those things if they exist. I mean granted, I admit to being a hot head but only when people force me to be. I actually have a pretty high tolerance before I get angry...but people today just have this way of not caring for anyone but themselves or enjoy getting over on others as a way of life.

I've never seen so many inconsiderate, self-centered and evil human beings in my life. NJ is famous for people of that nature so it's quite likely to be my area that I live in that brings on my hostility. Then again, I got a chance to talk to Chef Mike on the phone and man...what a guy. Like a long lost brother...so not everyone in this freakin' state is evil.

There's nothing I can do in my situation other than to do my best to walk away when faced with a confrontation. But, that's just me. I'll probably die by the sword someday...and you know what? Though that would suck for me and those I would leave behind, I'm cool with that if it's my destiny. But to me, that's a totally different problem and I'd not call it "mad for no reason" in my situation. If little things are making you want to just explode...take a look at what those little things may be masking.

You got little things (or maybe big things and your issues are reversed where mad for no reason is you venting so you don't totally lose it) that are all adding up, frustrating you, making you edgy, then the littlest thing or nothing at all just makes you want to rip something apart. There has to be something bigger behind your feelings bro. You seem like too nice of a guy to just be mad for no reason. Something is contributing to it. It may be a good idea to try and find out what that thing(s) is if indeed something exists.

At any rate, I wish you lived closer....you could just come hang out with me and do some jamming or something. :) I hope you get yourself in a better place bro. It sounds like you are and I'm just late to the party as usual. Good thoughts sent your way. :)

-Danny

Torturing my body helps me usually.

 
I did that, sort of... yesterday was the day to get my dog put down. I made an appointment for 5:00... she was ready. I had seen her during the day a couple of times walking around the dgpen (it is a large pen, big as some yards). She was in her house when I got her up. I had bought her a couple of plain McDonalds double burgers but she wasn't even interested in a bite, didn't want any water. I walked her out of the backyard onto the drivewaybefore offering the food and water. I have a '94 Nissan P/U as a utility truck. It is one of those SE kingcab models and I had her a bed behind the seats. I picked her up to load her into the cab and stepped back and half on, half off the edge of the driveway slab, twisted and sprianed my right ankle and fell (I kept her from hitting the ground and luckily I wasn't hurt except for the ankle). I felt like I was in a movie... we were both laying there and I told her, "We're just a couple of old dogs huh?"
I got her to the vet and she walked around in the grass outside while we waited. The called and she walked over to the door, stopped, I carried her in and laid her on the metal table. She just laid right down and didn't even try to get up... she was ready. I really think the timing was right. It wasn't bad at all. I was a little emotional earlier, then I realized that I was only thinking of myself and that it was the right thing to do and all went very well. I buried her with a large dog biscuit and the meat from the hamburgers. Sprayed the doghouses for fleas... all is well cept for this dang ankle. It swelled up like a goose egg.
I can't wait to see what tomorrow brings!
 
I am better today. cbow is home for the rest of the week and glad that "tax season" is over (she is a CPA in private practice).. oh, and my oldest grand daughter turns 10 today. We are taking her and her sister out for dinner. Grandkids make everything better, at least when they are kids.
 
All better now!!!
 
J

I could've destroyed every living thing within 15ft of me (srry, mom), and then burned my house down at that moment.

 
Yeah... that is it exactly. Sorry about the cookies,
 
J

Maybe there are things that are buried deep inside of you that are making you angry and quite possibly, it's time to eliminate or at least alter some of those things if they exist.

 
I'm sure that is true Danny but it isn't always easy to change the way you became as a kid. I know there are things I would change if I could, no doubt. I guess it is easier for some than for others but I do try... usually fail but never give up.
 
I'm not irritaded most of the time, most days are good. I think there has just been too much stress lately.... with the dog, other things that pop up, totaled car (no one hurt), another truck needs to be in the shop (later this week), I have to have a lot of classroom hours to keep my certified operator lisense for my business and I am behind... but I'll get caught up. Sometimes it seems like the older you get and the less energy you have... the more responsibity you have.
 
All is well... as well as it can be.