David: Nah, no dreams will get me. I'm serious man, I'm done with it and have never felt better. Then again, I've done some cool, sick things in my dreams, so if I can smoke and it doesn't affect me, woo hoo! Hahaha!
SongCraft: Yeah so true. I feel like I'm missing a friend. Isn't that sick? Like someone that used to be here all the time is no longer there and I'm really getting a dose of what it's like to be an only child. Uggh..what a weird addiction. No cravings tonight at all. My hand has stopped reaching for my pack. Stressful work day and not once did I wish I had one. This is officially day 3, so I'm feeling fantastic now. I'm ready for Goliath. He may knock me down, but I'm getting back up. LOL :)
Rimshot: That's one of my hugest fears. Actually 2 things right now. I'm hoping my tests from the Dr come back ok and losing my dad or someone close to me....you know, something traumatic...that's what usually makes someone go back. I think I can beat it though if God forbid that were to happen, I really do. Honest when I tell you, I've not gotten one craving for the tast of smoke or the smell. I went to buy coffee tonight when we took a break at the studio. A few guys were smoking outside. I walked through the smoke and thought to myself...that sure doesn't smell good. When you're a smoker, you can't even really smell it. I know things can change in a heart-beat, but all I can say right now is, I have no desire. When I say I'm done with something, I can count the times I've changed my mind and given someone or some thing, another chance. So I got this, I know it. :)
Julien: Day three here...no craving other than man...I'm freakin' hungry! I will not replace with food. LOL! But it sucks how hungry I am right now. And I ate a great dinner. I don't eat after 7 most times. Drinking water fills me up..stick of sugarless gum once in a while, no more than one cup of coffee per day.
My psychology is this....God has given me a wonderful little body that's perfect other than man, I wish I was a little taller. LOL! Everything works, I can walk, run, see, sit, stand, hear, smell, taste, feel....and my poor lungs and insides have been so neglected...and for what? This body has never let me down other than when my appendix went. I owe it to my body to have a pleasant ride out the rest of the way.
Thankfully I've always worked out a little, take really good suppliments and watch my diet. So I'm not a mess or anything. My one vice was smoking cigs. No drinking, no weed, no drugs, no eating other than every once in a while I may go a little nuts. But I'm 5'6, 142 lbs...I can cheat a little once in a while. LOL! So that 1 vice is now a thing of the past. I never want to go back to this again. Seriously. I've also decided to put $100.00 away every 2 weeks into it's own savings account. I created the account already and the money MUST go in as it's on a schedule per the bank, so this helps me stick to my guns. $100 is already in and will be taken out of my checking account every 2 weeks. :)
Tim: last Wednesday at rehearsal, my bassist came in with one of those. It actually tasted pretty good. I read a few things about those E-cigs that were sort of scary. Doctors report one thing, the E-cig companies counter with something else. To me, when you quit smoking, you quit anything that goes into your lungs other than air. So though I thank you for the alternative, I'd feel like I was cheating. :)
Thanks again everyone...this is the only place I have shared this with. Not that it's a big deal or anything and I'm sorry if some of it seems dramatic....I just never thought I'd deal with this, am happy I've quit and I'm happy to have you guys here. Thank you for being here for me.
-Danny