Thank you for offering to help me here. But I would like to discuss feelings and music now.
I truly feel that way as I've explained about my song. Even if I gain years of knowledge and experience in music, this will not change how I feel about this song (I will never look back on that song as being something not all that great). And our positive feelings about music is special and a work of art as well--something you can't change or make false. Each person's positive feelings regarding music is true, but in their own point of view. Therefore, since how I feel about that song cannot change or be made false, that means the song itself truly is powerful and that can't change or be made false either. So therefore, by that logic, wouldn't that mean my song (the one in my head) really is powerful? Or am I perhaps crazy like I said? In the case of me somehow being dillusional (which I really completely doubt), if for example, I got this song perfected myself and I was told that it isn't that great. But somehow that does not change how I view it at all, then how would I get this feeling changed? As long as I'm unaware of why I feel this way despite everything else and how it's wrong the way I feel about it, the feeling will forever haunt me knowing that it has gone unrecognized and that I'm forever alone with it. And I won't be able to become a better musician with it because I am not going with what the facts of reality are telling me, but my own feelings. I mean, how would it even be scientifically possible for me to truly feel that a song that is (in this case, no good, but only because of my flaws), is powerful and that the way I feel about it will never change? Again, I am not just feeling that way about this song because I made it--even if it was from someone I hated, I would still view the song the same way.