After reading most of this thread.... I recall the first "tune" you provided a few weeks back.....
I'm not trying to disrespect you by any means..... but this is a wakeup call. Stop daydreaming.... either get creative and find a way to get the music out or not.... keep living in the dream world. The real world is better IMHO.... but it may come as a cold hard slap in the face..... that's part of it. Realizing that you have a problem of some sort..... whatever it my be..... inactivity to pursue your dreams in a tangible way seems to be yours right now.....well, that's the first step to making that dream a reality.
Yeah I think a few people here nailed you.... daydreaming that you are the next latest, greatest, hottest music producer writer for film, TV and games is totally worthless unless you are willing to do the work needed to get the so called epic songs out of your head and into the real world.
every song starts in someone's head as an idea.... and that person takes that idea and works on it, and brings it to life one way or another. Beethoven was deaf.... Stevie Wonder is blind, as is Ray Charles. That did not stop them ... they found a way to persevere. I know a hit songwriter who neither sings well nor plays any instruments but yet, he has 10 #1 songs in several genre's. The inability to sing or play an instrument did not stop him from his dream. But he didn't set around simply thinking he was an epic hit writer..... he put it into action and found a way to get it done.
I'm not saying you don't have an epic song in you... but .... prove it for real... in the real world, which means getting the songs into a tangible form.... the proof that you are as great as you seem to think you are is to get the songs into a movie or game.
Setting in your room or basement thinking you are a great epic songwriter is for the birds and the delusional.
The rubber hits the road and you slam straight into reality when you have to put those ideas on "tape" and expose them to the world..... that my friend is the real test of greatness.
My guess is, you have some learning and work to do. Songwriting is not easy work or else everyone would be doing it. It is a learned skill. The only way you will come close to being an epic writer is to start writing, find a way to get the ideas into a form everyone who hears it can appreciate, learn from your mistakes and keep writing.
I have seen major improvements in my writing skills in the last few years, but I have also been working diligently to make those improvements. It didn't just happen cause I dreamed it....the dreaming is a start.... but you can not get stuck on step one.... you must set out on the journey and endure the failures and keep moving.
With the software and synths and loops and other things available..... there is no excuse. Life is short so get busy.