https://www.reverbnation.com/stevestallings/song/26053486-lonely-road-to-heaven I wrote this song about PTSD. I wish I didn't have a personal knowledge of this, but it has lived with me in one form or another since Vietnam. I have done ok for the most part. This song is the first public statement I've ever expressed about it.
It's a lonely road to heaven
when you're just this side of hell
and the darkness of the night time hides your fear
the dreams cry of forever
the emptiness stares back
the innocence of youth forever lost
you've been here in this silent room
so many nights before
you know the dreams will come
they always do
you beg the Lord's forgiveness
for the cruel heart of man
you pray the scars you bear
will someday heal
so you close your eyes pretend you can not feel
and the lonely road to heaven rises up just this side of hell
How many nights you've lain awake
and prayed there'd be a day
the empty pain you hold and cannot share
would be set free one magic morn
darkness cast away
light would fill your empty heart once more
until then you'll close your eyes
no one will ever know
the dark place your heart goes to each night
you beg the Lords forgiveness
for the cruel heart of man
you pray the scars you bear
will someday heal
you close your eyes pretend you can not feel
and the lonely road to heaven rises up just this side of hell
Steve Stallings 2016
Everything recorded on SPLAT
Recorded at Cypress Creek Audio ( my place)