Chris Cornell has long been a huge inspiration and probably my favourite 90's rock musician. My younger brother always used to say that we had similar songwriting styles, a penchant for the same type of melodies and hooks, which isn't surprising, considering that we had the same influences.
Plus, we're both called Chris...
I woke up in the ICU last week after attempting to take my own life the previous weekend (I don't wish to go over the personal details and my struggles - I got help and I'm okay now).
One of the very first things that I learned after I emerged was that Chris Cornell had taken his life.
The shock was violent - to see one of my "heroes" dead by his own hand, using what
would have been my method of choice but which I had discarded for reasons not to be disclosed here.
A guy named Chris who hung himself that exact week... It was like having a mirror shoved in my face and realizing what I had done, the folly of my way, and what I'd played with. A bit as if I were allowed to see an alternative ending to the movie of my life, a different "director's cut"....
I felt as though I was waking up from a nightmare and given a second lease on life - well, it actually is a second lease on life: had not my lovely wife come home and found me precisely when she did, and had not the doctors work on resuscitating and fixing me for the next few days, I'd be a goner.
RIP Chris Cornell - I'm so very sorry that you're gone. Your music is a quintessential part of my life. Your death will forever be a precious reminder of how lucky I am and how I shall never again flirt with death.