sharke
SuperMarioGamer
sharke
You have been over this over and over and over again on this forum and nobody here can offer you a shred of advice or insight that you're willing to take or listen to. Please don't take this the wrong way but you really need to post this stuff on a forum which deals with psychological issues and has people qualified to offer advice about your particular psychological problem. Because I know how these threads go - people will, having not read your earlier posts, eagerly write long and well thought out advice only to find that you instantly pooh pooh it as inapplicable to your "unique" disorder. It seems to me that you're just using this forum as a platform on which to indulge your own sense of self-tragedy without actually having any interest in accepting help or advice from anyone. Some may say that's harsh but it's just honestly what I think man. So please take your problem to a forum which is qualified to help with these things, I really wish you all the best of luck.
Actually, this time is different. All I was simply saying was that I have my good feelings back to me again and that I am now going to learn how to compose. But if I lose those feelings again, then I am just going to give up again until I can get them back to me.
I'm just not sure how that information is relevant to anyone on this forum, that's all. This is a music related forum, not a psychiatrist's couch. If you just want to talk about the technical side of composing then everyone will be all ears, but as soon as you start talking about how it relates to your mental condition then you're not going to win any friends here. Just saying....
Alright, never mind then. I understand. If I have technical musical questions I would like to ask or if I wish to discuss something technical about music that is actually worth discussing with me, then I will do so instead.