I will make one more post here for others to reply to. As I said, I am currently learning how to compose as of now. But I have no true passion for composing alone in of itself. My true passion is having these awesome and beautiful songs I've created in my mind to get praised and recognized by as many people as I can find. It's not about me as a person getting admiration. Rather, it is about these songs since they are so great, special, beautiful, and powerful to me and they sound like those top of the line songs you hear that are produced by hardcore musical professionals. The brain is an amazing thing and it can create such songs in your head.
Now my composing dream is no different than if you wanted to build a house, but you have no true passion for working with tools and being skilled at building houses. It wasn't about the process of building that house. Rather, it was about that house being created since this house is the most special and beautiful house to you and you really want it to be built. So that is the analogue for my composing dream. I have no true passion for the whole process of composing. Rather, my true passion is having my envisioned music praised, admired, and recognized by as many people as I can find since it is these songs that are important to me; not the composing.
Some people might say that I am not a true composer. They might call me a com
poser which would be a poser in the composing art. But I don't care about that. I just want these songs in my mind to become a reality and for them to be praised and recognized. I know this is a set up for failure and disappointment since there are so many factors that could prevent me from achieving this goal such as some fatal illness or disease. But I am still going to go through with this composing dream of mine anyway and just hope that I achieve my goal.