"Lastly, I have no desire for any relationship in the first place.  I have no desire to, for example, dedicate my life to a wife and child since the thing that makes my life worth living is my own personal life of happiness and enjoyment.  I just wish to be happy and enjoy my own personal life.  I don't want to live for anyone else, help anyone else, etc.  Even though I am 28 years old, I am not your typical adult.  I don't contribute to society, have a wife and child, have a job, etc.  I just live like your average kid or teenager who enjoys anime, videogames, and learning how to compose."
 
 
This is a lie.  Because if your goal was a life of happiness and enjoyment, per your reasoning you wouldn't have the desire to compose.

SuperMarioGamer
I just live like your average kid or teenager who enjoys anime, videogames, and learning how to compose. 
 

You've already said that you have no passion for the act of composing. So to then claim that you "enjoy" leaning to compose is dishonest. 
 
Composing isn't just the act of translating a complete piece of music in your head onto paper.  What you hear in your head is a misty approximation of a composition at best, just like an author starts with a vague overview of how a novel is going to play out. It's only when you get into the nitty gritty of putting it on paper (or on the screen or whatever) that your musical creativity emerges. You might have a melody in your head, but you cannot develop that melody and its harmony until you actually start composing. And this creativity is going to be tainted by the fact that you have no passion for composing (your own words). A great composer may hear a complete melody in their head, or even the bare bones of a full composition, but it's their passion for composing which turns that vague idea into a masterpiece. Their joy of the art is what drives them to explore the possibilities of a theme, to come up with variations on that theme, experiment with different harmonies and structures, develop a story. 
 
You seem to have romanticized the art of composing into a mechanical process by which a preordained musical destiny is set down on paper by some passionless, mechanical process. You will quickly find that this is not how it works and that your lack of enthusiasm for the act of composing will severely limit your sense of creativity as you work. That's what I meant by saying that your attitude will be painfully apparent in your music. 

sharke

SuperMarioGamer
I just live like your average kid or teenager who enjoys anime, videogames, and learning how to compose. 
 

You've already said that you have no passion for the act of composing. So to then claim that you "enjoy" leaning to compose is dishonest. 
 
Composing isn't just the act of translating a complete piece of music in your head onto paper.  What you hear in your head is a misty approximation of a composition at best, just like an author starts with a vague overview of how a novel is going to play out. It's only when you get into the nitty gritty of putting it on paper (or on the screen or whatever) that your musical creativity emerges. You might have a melody in your head, but you cannot develop that melody and its harmony until you actually start composing. And this creativity is going to be tainted by the fact that you have no passion for composing (your own words). A great composer may hear a complete melody in their head, or even the bare bones of a full composition, but it's their passion for composing which turns that vague idea into a masterpiece. Their joy of the art is what drives them to explore the possibilities of a theme, to come up with variations on that theme, experiment with different harmonies and structures, develop a story. 
 
You seem to have romanticized the art of composing into a mechanical process by which a preordained musical destiny is set down on paper by some passionless, mechanical process. You will quickly find that this is not how it works and that your lack of enthusiasm for the act of composing will severely limit your sense of creativity as you work. That's what I meant by saying that your attitude will be painfully apparent in your music. 

Composing is like an orgasm...there's lots of different ways of achieving it. SMG, spend some time experimenting.  This is your first composition lesson.

eph221
"Lastly, I have no desire for any relationship in the first place.  I have no desire to, for example, dedicate my life to a wife and child since the thing that makes my life worth living is my own personal life of happiness and enjoyment.  I just wish to be happy and enjoy my own personal life.  I don't want to live for anyone else, help anyone else, etc.  Even though I am 28 years old, I am not your typical adult.  I don't contribute to society, have a wife and child, have a job, etc.  I just live like your average kid or teenager who enjoys anime, videogames, and learning how to compose."
 
 
This is a lie.  Because if your goal was a life of happiness and enjoyment, per your reasoning you wouldn't have the desire to compose.

My point here is that when I have my feelings of happiness and enjoyment, that is what gives me the desire to compose and learn how to compose.  But without these feelings, then I would just give up since I have no desire, inspiration, happiness, etc. which would make my composing dream not worth living for.  So the fact that I am learning how to compose now means I have these good feelings back to me now.
 

sharke

SuperMarioGamer
I just live like your average kid or teenager who enjoys anime, videogames, and learning how to compose. 
 

You've already said that you have no passion for the act of composing. So to then claim that you "enjoy" leaning to compose is dishonest. 
 
Composing isn't just the act of translating a complete piece of music in your head onto paper.  What you hear in your head is a misty approximation of a composition at best, just like an author starts with a vague overview of how a novel is going to play out. It's only when you get into the nitty gritty of putting it on paper (or on the screen or whatever) that your musical creativity emerges. You might have a melody in your head, but you cannot develop that melody and its harmony until you actually start composing. And this creativity is going to be tainted by the fact that you have no passion for composing (your own words). A great composer may hear a complete melody in their head, or even the bare bones of a full composition, but it's their passion for composing which turns that vague idea into a masterpiece. Their joy of the art is what drives them to explore the possibilities of a theme, to come up with variations on that theme, experiment with different harmonies and structures, develop a story. 
 
You seem to have romanticized the art of composing into a mechanical process by which a preordained musical destiny is set down on paper by some passionless, mechanical process. You will quickly find that this is not how it works and that your lack of enthusiasm for the act of composing will severely limit your sense of creativity as you work. That's what I meant by saying that your attitude will be painfully apparent in your music. 

When I have my feelings of happiness and enjoyment and when the goal of having these songs in my head being made into a reality is an obtainable goal, then I have a passion for composing.  I do enjoy composing then.  But if I had some fatal disease that would kill me off within a few days, then I would no longer have anymore passion or enjoyment towards composing since it was all about these songs in my head becoming a reality for others to hear and witness.  
 
I wish to share these types of compositions I hear in my head since they are the truly great compositions.  The ones I would just pluck out on the keyboard would always be mediocre and meaningless to me even if I have learned how to compose.  What I create in my head is something truly great while what I create on the keyboard through experimentation hardly compares.
 
 

"My point here is that when I have my feelings of happiness and enjoyment, that is what gives me the desire to compose and learn how to compose.  But without these feelings, then I would just give up since I have no desire, inspiration, happiness, etc. which would make my composing dream not worth living for.  So the fact that I am learning how to compose now means I have these good feelings back to me now."
 
Everyone has moods.  Don't believe your shrink that you're the only one.  He's getting richer and you're getting poorer.  
 
"When I have my feelings of happiness and enjoyment and when the goal of having these songs in my head being made into a reality is an obtainable goal, then I have a passion for composing.  I do enjoy composing then.  But if I had some fatal disease that would kill me off within a few days, then I would no longer have anymore passion or enjoyment towards composing since it was all about these songs in my head becoming a reality for others to hear and witness.  
 
I wish to share these types of compositions I hear in my head since they are the truly great compositions.  The ones I would just pluck out on the keyboard would always be mediocre and meaningless to me even if I have learned how to compose.  What I create in my head is something truly great while what I create on the keyboard through experimentation hardly compares."
 
I like the fact that you're romantic.  In order to get out of your shell, find a gf or bf.  Turn your charm and good looks into a tool.

SuperMarioGamer
 
 
I wish to share these types of compositions I hear in my head since they are the truly great compositions.  The ones I would just pluck out on the keyboard would always be mediocre and meaningless to me even if I have learned how to compose.  What I create in my head is something truly great while what I create on the keyboard through experimentation hardly compares.
 
 

 
There are not enough s in the world.
 
 

Here's the deal with composing:  it can be as complicated or as simple as one wants to make it.  It's in the interest of commerce to make it complicated, right? ( Academia or any other power that is.)  *create the need in order to fill it*.  Now that the ability to compose has gotten so much easier with technology, the old powers that be are circling their wagons.But if you can make a note, you can compose.  That's the facts jack.  go forth and prosper SMG.  Plant your seeds all over the earth, watch your crop grow!

Hey Mario, I think you would be great starring in your very own "unreality show". You could compose the theme song, write the script, produce and direct, and do your own reviews. You could also be the president of your own fan club, which would consist of one fan, YOU! Since, by your own admission, you don't need or want to care about anyone else, you could sit there in front of your TV with a big mirror behind so you could better relish all your reactions to your "very bizarre, beautiful, unique" compositions. You could title it "ME and MARIO". And make sure to include the episode where the psychotic builds a mansion in his mind and then moves in. Then the psychiatrist comes along and charges him rent. You could play all the parts AND compose the magnificent background music. It would be FANTASTIC.....EARTHSHAKING....MONUMENTAL...WOW!.........

Yeah... I think it's time to ban the basement hobby chatbot again.
 
Seriously, bro... your chatbot sux.