At my age I have zero fantasies. It's like the second to last chapter Judy Garland's biography. Dark, shadowy and full of medications. Btw I know someone that owns judy garland's lavender toilet seat. He was a resident at the same psychiatric institution as she was. She had renovated his room's bathroom to all lavender. This is really true btw. He got kicked out of that institution but stole the toilet seat on his way out.
some day I'll tell you about my artist friend who collects celebrity turds. He puts them in jars and displays them as his *art*.