Many thanks to all of you with your good thoughts and ideas...
I know that waiting for the software is not the end of the world... And the release excitement can often mask severe issues as you all remind me...
I also know that the power I have in my DAW far exceeds anything I've had in the past.... Even working 24 track analog was a burden compared to what we now do...
I guess I'm feeling so sad because my life situation is bad and promising to get far worse before better.... It has been falling this way for a long time, but the one thing I've granted myself every year regardless of situation was the new Sonar upgrade. So I'm feeling even lower that before...
New toys? Sure they're fun, but the music I make these days doesn't really need them. I do wind up writing some different pieces each release though as I tinker with new gadgets and ideas... Mostly what it is for me is the need for improved workflow and "cures" for some of the issues plaguing my work (not a day goes by that I don't get angry about the Lanes issues, so I'm hoping that the new improvements might lift me from the constant annoyance I have with X2.... I will have to adapt to a different way of working than I have done... That much is pretty clear, but I'm hopeful that it will be better...
I don't feel I have too much time left to my musical life and everything that gets in the way of that is a major obstacle for me..
I'm just very depressed facing the loss of my way of life and this is the pinnacle of its appearance for me...
So without spending more time spreading my depression onto so many good people (all of you), I will end this post by saying that as there's nothing I can do to change anything right now and my electric is still on, I will spend today writing a new piece of music and submitting to my other disease (Peterpanitis has been mentioned by me on this forum before - I won't crow up)... The other disease is Neroism (Nero fiddled while Rome burnt and I make my music while my life crumbles from under me)... I will let the disease run rampant today and do my best not to get to angry/frustrated by X2's issues (my issues with it)...
Many thanks to all of you for your support and thoughts... I truly hope you all have a joyous day and make wonderful music with whatever tools you chose to use...
Keni