bapu
Oh how I wish I were a cockroach.

 
Oddest desire of the year nominee! 
 

craigb

bapu
Oh how I wish I were a cockroach.

 
Oddest desire of the year nominee! 
 

I beat out the OP?
 
Yay for me.

He'd win if he were to change the OP and say he wants to be a composing cockroach though...

Leadfoot
Good call James. I had forgotten about that thread. So he's basically wasted a year and a half to come back and ask the same questions all over again. Could have been making music by now...

I had serious life events that I had to attend to in the meantime.  They were horrible events in my life that I had to work with therapy and time.  But, yes, I will start to learn how to compose now.  But I feel it will all just be a waste if my heart condition kills me off before I get the chance to have my music fully produced and get it out there in the world for it to be recognized.

I think you should ask Dave triple O.
 
He'll know what to do.

SuperMarioGamer
But I feel it will all just be a waste if my heart condition kills me off before I get the chance to have my music fully produced and get it out there in the world for it to be recognized.

That might just be the fourth or fifth time you've said that (today).

Look, here is the bottom line, you will find no joy in simply producing music to get rich or famous. Some of the best musicians in the world are people that no one has ever heard of. Would each and everyone of us here like to be recognized for our music? I bet almost everyone would say yes to that. But in the end you do it because you love to play, or write, or sing or whatever. If you are doing it for the wrong reasons there will be no joy in it for you. So my advice, don't even start if that is what you are doing it for. Do it because you love music and the creative process or not at all.

MBGantt
Look, here is the bottom line, you will find no joy in simply producing music to get rich or famous. Some of the best musicians in the world are people that no one has ever heard of. Would each and everyone of us here like to be recognized for our music? I bet almost everyone would say yes to that. But in the end you do it because you love to play, or write, or sing or whatever. If you are doing it for the wrong reasons there will be no joy in it for you. So my advice, don't even start if that is what you are doing it for. Do it because you love music and the creative process or not at all.

I find immense joy in pursuing composing to get my music out there one day.  But if that option were taken out, then I wouldn't even bother composing then.  So you are wrong in saying that I find no joy in composing to aim for that goal.  I am very serious about composing.  
 
Therefore, my reason for doing it is something big.  That is, the goal I just mentioned to you.  My reason for composing is not for the "little" and trivial things such as just having fun, coping with life, experimenting, etc.  I have created awesome music in my mind and I just don't want all that talent to be wasted over those little and trivial things.

Then you better get busy so you can be recognized for all that talent.

SuperMarioGamer
 
So I am just basically setting myself up for failure and disappointment then?  I have such a strong desire to get my music fully produced and to get it out there in the world to get it recognized, 

What music? According to you, you haven't made any music. Ever. There is no such thing as wanting to get your music out there when your music doesn't exist. Wanting to have music to get out there? Sure. You can definitely want that. But unless you sit down and actually produce some music, you may as well be saying I want to show the world my magic purple unicorn that poops flying t-bone steaks.

As for not being sure whether or not to try because it might be pointless if you fail? Well I let you in a couple little secrets.
Secret #1: Its all pointless.
 
You have never existed here before. You will never exist here again. You could sit on your duff and eat corn chips until you die or you could invent the next generation of electronic instruments and either way in 100 years you'll be long since dead and no one will know your name nor anything about who you were nor what you did. 
 
Secret #2: When its all said and done, you're not going to care whether you achieved fame or not.
 
Here's the thing. We're all going to die and none of us know when that will happen. So your heart condition doesn't change anything as far as deciding what to try or not try. Any one of us could get hit by a bus tomorrow, just like you. If we all allowed that to dictate what did or did not try, none of us would ever try anything.

So lets say you decide to go for it and try. And lets say you never realize any kind of fame for you effort. In the end, you're not going to care. 
 
Here's the bottom line. Its a pointless ride. Your only job is to enjoy it. So if you think you would enjoy the process of learning to make music and then enjoy the process of making music, then you should make music. If on the other hand, the only thing you would truly enjoy is fame and recognition, then I highly recommend you consider shooting a sitting president*. Because that is the only thing that will give the vast majority of us any shot at any kind of fame. Even mass murder is common place now and so no longer awards the perpetrator any sort of lasting name recognition. I defy you to name even one mass murderer from the last 24 months without the use of google. If you want guaranteed fame these days, you gotta shoot a president.* That's about the only way. 


*Warning: May contain sarcasm.