Hey guys!

The journey is soon coming to an end cuz even though I feel like I've been constantly improving over this year and I've had some really good feedback as well I'm still so far away from being able to survive on my music which is sad, but the reality. I have like no listeners and performing live seems almost impossible with the kind of music I'm making unless u've made urself a name first. I have a few more things to do and tomorrow morning I'm actually perfoming live on radio but I'm pretty close to be throwing in the towel right now cuz this is not sustainable :(

Anyway, here you go! My first ever music video :)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9W09Lb3vLLU

I usually do not like this style but this sounded like it was well produced so considering that this is probably very good music. Mix sounded balanced except that the chorus vocals could have been a bit louder. But others may think differently.
kakku

Giving up sucks.  Dude, I'm 67 years old and I still haven't given up.  As a young man I had achieved some success in bands and still remember the screaming chicks and the acceptance by other high level musicians.  Will I hit that stride again?  Probably not but I will leave a ton of songs for my kids and grandchildren that will help them understand who I am.  So, you can give up but if you love it the feeling never goes away.  There is always the possibility of someone hearing your work (which is very good) and bingo.  Hope and dreams is what keeps us going.  Don't give in.

I forgot to say that the video was good too.
kakku

Not usually my bag this type of music but I enjoyed the listen and it sounds very well produced through my monitors. It even sounds good through my inbuilt speakers on my monitor screen.
 
I do feel your pain about making it in the music world and it seems that some mediocre people get all the breaks. Hang on in there and don't stop producing, all it takes is that one person to listen and pick you up.

How about those music libraries are those any good income wise? Have you tried those?
kakku

Production sounds good here, well balanced and crisp.   Nice job on the video too - black & white seems to suit real well.