wow .. the amount of thought / production that musta went into a piece like this ... quite dramatic ... and ... well i see what you mean ... compared to the weee tune i chucked together, can instantly hear the body, and depth in this track ... much fuller .. and all your tracks .. i listened to a few tracks ... interesting sound .. not what i was expecting ... very talented man
i know you were speaking of my drum useage specifically ... but i think my brain seems to want to focus on high pitch tones far too often for some reason .. have to keep being reminded to add in some bassy sound .. i put it down to me just not being a musician
this may sound pessimistic, but i mean it as a compliment .. when i listen to pieces like this, where people like yourself clearly have talent .. it kinda puts me off a bit .. and makes me feel a bit silly for doin what i do ... feel like am playing houses in comparison ... reality check ... :) ... i know the correct attitude should be, one day i hope to aspire to that ... but seems such a long waaay awaaay ... perhaps with a few more lovely folk like yourself, who nurture, and use your words to carry people forward ...
i think just as music 'can' reflect how you feel inside, confidence plays a huge role also, in either the finished product, or even in determining if something actually gets produced ... which i have just about zero confidence, in this area .. am an IT geek .. not a musician .. i have zero people in my real life, to ask for help or opinions on music .. they laughed and scoffed at me before, some of which were musicians, who i at one time praised and continually reassured, to instill confidence in them and their music, also scoffed at me .. and generally just dont really have any friends or family anyway .. (get the violins out :) )
This is the reason i came to the forum over a year ago .. i could not ask these people for opinions any more .. putting myself on the line, and letting the people i love, hear what i put my heart into, and watching as their faces screwed up with laughter, and the sorts .. i did get a wee bit depressed after that .. am not a depressive guy .. but it opened my eyes as to who i thought was genuine, and who really cares etc .. all these people i have done so much for with genuine intent, showed their true colours over something so simple .. i hate what i saw .. but cannot ignore it .. was a real eye opener .. and not what i expected from sharing a silly tune .. i expected, wow .. you tried that .. fair play for attempting it brian .. but no .. it changed my world around .. i saw none of these people in the same light after that .... this was not what i expected to happen at all
It has been real helpful to have people like yourself that i was able to turn to last year, and ask for an opinion .. cos my heart was through the floor .. and it really did pick me up a bit .. and make me think alspo, that maybe i should continue expressing my heart through music .. i tried for a bit .. and nothing happened .. i spent many nights .. sitting with complete writers block ..i was letting too many valuable evenings go wasted, when i could be doing something else that actually is, doing something ..
the bug never left me tho .. its been niggling at me all this time .. if i had kept going .. what kinda stuff could i have eventually made .. i was soo curious .. and think .. but what if something amazing and beautiful eventually comes out .. (in my mind, i dont create this .. my vibration / frequency, connects to a universal mind if you will .. universal knowledge of everything .. i think beethoven is the perfect example of this concept, tho my understanding may be somewhat crude) .. what if i eventually raise my vibration, and connect to something heavenly .. and channel it through music .. and if i dont keep continueing .. it may never happen .. you cant lose something you never had .. but if i don't try, i may always wonder ...
the point im making in all this rambling is .. you are one of the nice ones ... stay that way man .. cos, these are just words on a screen .. but can still be hurtful to some people .. am not speaking of my experience here now .. am speaking mainly of my experience here last year .. even lynn, one of the folk who has been thanked for kind words everywhere, in the many many thread i have been in, and the many many tracks i have listened to (that people assume i dont, cos i dont always interact and participate due to sheer insecurity in this field .. cos am sooo new and know nothing) ... including in your own threads, was extremely sharp tongued with me in my very first encounter here, and nearly put me off continueing .. i came here almost with broken confidence and ego, almost about to give up before i even started .. and reading his first response just confirmed, i definitely shouldnt be doing this ... he may be good at what he does .. and see greatness in other peoples work .. but it dont make him a great person .. no .. you, are a great person, cos regardless of all that, or how amateurish my tune is (that was his problem, my tune was too amateurish) .. you still spoke to me like, and made me feel like, a human being .. and the other great people that came along, and said, no, you know what, its pretty good for your 3rd attempt mate .. keep at it .. and thanks to them,, and only thanks to them, i did ..
i can guarantee if it was down to reponses like lynns, and others .. the tune i posted yesterday would never have happened ... again .. they feel its the nature of the business to be sharp tongued etc .. or i have seen him say words to this effect elsewhere .. seems to be a pretty much 'get out if you cant take it' attitude .. where as ive always felt iots better to be nice to people, anbd try encourage them .. even if i think theyre not cut out to be doing what theyre doing .. let them find that out .. and encourage them while theyre trying .. just in case ... its their path to experience ..
am sure he and the other sharp tongued people in here would say they didnt mean to offend bla blah whatever, and attempt to justify it and of course we could just as easily say its my fault for being so sensetive or whatever ... it is what it is .. and what has happened has happened .. and again .. i say no .. its a human thing .. humans justify being crappy to each other .. then people like you come along inn the exact same situation .. and show you can also be nice to each other .. and still get the exact same messages across ...
its about being civil and decent with people unless they do something very wrong and give you reason to make them feel crappy .. which it seems you have grasped, just as well as your talent for music
i feel its a breath of fresh air meeting someone who is willing to be genuinely sincerely nice these days ..
Thanks for your time mate .. Enjoy
take care and God Bless x