PilotGav
Thanks for your encouragement and experience guys! Starting again is horrendous! Especially since I started from scratch at 17 after having to leave high school and find a way to learn to go from nothing to something with no education or help. I don't want to do it again.
So I fire up Sonar and pretend everything's great! Lol. My sweet escape!
Music I think is pretty much the only thing that wont leave you, you can ignore it, neglect it, let other things take precedence of it, for me that was only ever a partner/female, but it's always there, never goes away, because for most of us it is part of us, part of who we are, regardless of how good or bad we are at it, it's something that is just 'in us'. That's what I tell a lot of people who inquire after why I spend so much time with it and forsake all else for it (family aside, most of the time) it's the only thing that is always there, for as long as I can remember, and when I am doing it, it's when I feel the best, happiest, it's part of who I am, without it I am not me, even if you try to push it away, it always comes back.
Don't pretend . . . believe