Hi,
 
First of all, don't think you are the only one who gets depressed about music. I have gotten so sick of LA BS at times I shoved the whole lot in the corner and considered selling all of it.
 
Then I hear something that catches my ear and I have to drag out the guitar or set down at the piano and play something. I have long ceased getting angry about money issues and music. I play because I want too and I may be for hire but I am not for sale. I have played a lot of free gigs because I would rather do that than be angry about being offered $100 bucks to drive fifty miles one way to some bar to play. 
 
I also do other things so music does not define me. When I get fed up with the crap that goes on in the music business I go fishing or go fly my airplane or go drive my buddy's tractor at his farm.
 
I also sometimes find when I get depressed with music and feel nobody is paying any attention to stuff I do it is because I have refused to get off my butt and get better at something I know I need to learn.
 
It is my business to create music and it is none of my business what other people think about what I create. I hope they like it, and it always feels good to get positive feedback.
 
Lighten up and take a break, and when you feel better, then you can make a decision about 

"give up on music all together"

 
Cheers,
 
Billy

hang on in there Øyvind

Never give up what is part of you. I have learned not to have any expectations from making music except how it makes me feel when I make it. I don't care if anyone listens to what I have written or am playing. I love when my music gives someone pleasure. That's what it's there for. If no one cares it has nothing to do with me
 
P.S. Save your money and buy something YOU want with it. There's no need to play for a crowd when you can play for yourself. I have my own little world where I can play till my heart is full and content. Then I don't hit the "save button". Unless I want to impress Bapu

Thanks guys! I'll try to stick to it. Maybe buying that amp is what I need to feel joy while playing home. And give the F to those that give me the F. Lol.

Can I push the helpful on all your posts here?

First of all, your music is great, and you are very talented!
 
That being said, there is SO MUCH great music out there, it's hard to be noticed these days.  What's needed is all of these, in large quantities:

1. great music AND
2. great marketing/PR for your music
3. LOTS OF PATIENCE

Unfortunately, many of us musicians/artists are very bad at that 2nd part... myself included!
 
But the bottom line is that just because your music isn't "selling" or you're not getting huge turnouts at your gigs, it doesn't mean that you're lacking in #1 above (i.e. you might really have great music!).  It is more likely that your marketing/PR and fan support (i.e. coaxing everyone you know out to every gig, all the time!!!) are lacking, because it's distasteful and you hate doing it.  I know I do!  But it takes a HUGE amount of effort to move a single person to come out to a gig, or buy an album.  And some luck too. :)  Most of us just don't have that in us.  But if you do, then maybe practice some more on #2 and I'm sure it'll have positive results in time (that's the 3rd part).

Jarsve
Thanks guys! I'll try to stick to it. Maybe buying that amp is what I need to feel joy while playing home. And give the F to those that give me the F. Lol.

Sure if you got the money to buy the amp comfortably go ahead and just buy it ….
You may feel good for a while and you are actually investing in yourself by doing that ….
it is not a magic fix all but you can ride the wave until the honeymoon is over ….
then when you decide to go out and play live again , you will still have the amp 
 
Kenny

If misery loves company, I'm here for you.. you aren't alone.
Most days here SUQ... but I live them anyway. Adulthood isn't quite what childhood said it was... and whoever came up with the term "Golden Years" is a moron.
You will get through it. IDK, I think life is sort of like marriage, people have the wrong expectations. We think for some reason it is about happiness, it isn't. It is about doing the best you can and hanging in there... even if the best you can do seems awfully pitiful. I try to not compare my life with anyone else's life because theirs always looks better. I think it is because I know so well all my faults and tend to magnify them.
I guess I'm not much help other than to tell you... it's not you, it's just life. Giving up isn't an option.
Get the amp anyway. Play yer guitar.
 
J

I'm going for the Line 6 Amp top and a Bugera 212 cab. I'll try my best to play every day.

Thank you guys. You all are the best.

Yours would be a sadder story if your music was sh*t but I've heard it and it's good stuff. Snap out of it, find some local players to jam with. Unless you live north of the Arctic Circle they're right there in your town. Even they're a Polka band, go for it. You might invent the next metal subgenre.