ORIGINAL: Xfusion
...Lately, work has been killing my creativity and draining all of my energy and focus- I had been recording and working on my music at nights and on the weekend, but I've realized I just can't do it anymore. When I come home, my brain is fried and all I want to do is relax and rest and I keep putting my music off even though I really do want to work on it. And whenever I try to force myself to work on music, I get poor results because my mental energy is just gone...
This segment here is the nut of the dilemma and illustrates the exact reason that quitting your job *won't* make your musical life better.
Being a full-time musician is much harder than being a part-time one. Frankly if you were really as dedicated as you're telling yourself you are then you would be making music instead of complaining about how you're mentally drained. You have the same hours in the day as Einstein, Da Vinci, Bach, Coltrane, Mother Teresa had. This board has some 20,000 people most of whom do music as a hobby or whatever.
Think about this: you don't even have sufficient commitment to be a
hobbyist. What are you going to blame when you have no job?
I am not trying to be cruel, here, but you are about to make a really big mistake. When I saw the title of this thread I figured someone had been confronted with a small contract or tour deal, or was making some little money doing music and wondering whether to risk life without health coverage or job security or whatever. My advice to that person would have been to go for it.
But you are not actually confronting a choice of whether to pursue music, you are trying to use your (lack of) dedication to music as an excuse to quit your job, and asking people here to validate it.
Go back to school, seriously. Consider therapy. You are on the fast track to depression if you quit your job now, because two months later you will have nothing musical to show for it, you will be embarrassed by that fact which will lead you to withdraw from friends and family, you will become that much more discouraged and tired...
Seriously, get help from people around you who know your situation better than we do. Listen to advice from smart people around you. Do not listen to the part of you that keeps telling you that it's your job's fault. That is not a voice that's leading you to a good place.
Cheers.