sharke
You repeat the same stuff over and over and it's gibberish to everyone except you. This forum is not the place for it. Please go and unravel your brain somewhere else. I'm on the brink of reporting it as spam. 

I have made a final edit to my previous post just in case you or anyone else wishes to read and respond to it anyway.

hedonistic values? And here I thought it was a sickness...hmmm, well I'm happy anyway. Good luck.

There is no valid treatment or cure for social anhedonia. So I guess you're SOL on that, ol pal. But I can tell ya quite honestly that simply yammering on about it in seemingly endless monologues is no way to engender either sympathy or empathy among your fellow forumites. Try having a martini and an "old fashioned" and see if that helps. Even if only for a minute or two.

I am going to make one last important point here which is that I only live by my own values and not the values of others.  Therefore, I do not live by the values of others who tell me that I should and would be a great person for pursuing my composing dream anyway without my pleasure.
 
If it were somehow proven to me right now that I would never be able to recover my pleasure, then the only thing that would make me the better person would be for me to end my life.  Therefore, I am the better person for giving up on my dreams and I am the better person for ending my life.  Me accepting my loss of pleasure, moving on in life, and pursuing my composing dream anyway, this would make me and my life inferior and worthless since I would be living by the loathsome values of others and not my own hedonistic values.
 
Now as for anyone who would tell me that I would be selfish and such for ending my life in the event that my pleasure doesn't recover, then you honestly expect me to live my life having no personal good life of my own to experience pleasure in?  Furthermore, for you to expect that from me would mean that you have utterly demeaned my own personal value as a human being and my life for rejecting my desire to have a personal life of pleasure of my own.  You would have rejected my own personal good value that I have which would be my right to have a life of full pleasure.

SonicFan

Beepster
You ever think that maybe if you plodded on and just DID it maybe you'd suddenly wake up one day feeling pleasure again because you actually accomplished something related to your goal?
 
Of course you have because that is EXACTLY what I said the first time you popped in here with this crap. You rejected it and made up a pile of excuses and justifications.
 
You don't want to learn how to write music. You don't want to learn how to play an instrument of any kind. You are convinced you are an "epic" talent that the world is being denied but you refuse to take any actions to prove it and get angry and indignant at the fact noone is handing you awards and singing your praises.
 
It may seem like I'm being nasty but if you want it that badly DO IT! That's what every single other person on here has done. We PLAY and MAKE music whether we are geniuses or not because that's what we want to do... so we DO IT!!
 
 

My pleasure can only be recovered by other means such as through electric shock therapy or by other means.  It cannot be recovered by me doing the things I would of otherwise enjoyed since this anhedonia has already been going on for 7 months and no amount of me engaging in enjoyable activities has brought back any degree of pleasure whatsoever.
 
As for me learning music theory and such, I may have been reluctant at first since the idea of learning and such wasn't very appealing to me at first and was boring to me.  But over time, I have developed a sense of enjoyment towards learning.  But that has all faded away now that I have this anhedonia.

I wish you well and for a speedy recovery.
 
At least twice in my life I have lost two workmates; one due to cancer (at age 21) she died not long after her Birthday, which I attended (it was an amazing event).  She was a very talent actress who appeared on several popular TV series and also did live theater (acting/singing).  She had an incredible voice and vocal range, very talent. At the time I was lining up a record deal, that fell through. The other girl was in a close relationship with me worked for a highly respected music business, anyway... she got hit by a speeding courier van and die instantly, she was only 19 years old. Her parents called me, broke the news to me, she always kept song excerpts I wrote for her. I miss her, I loved her very much.
 
Anyway, it took me a while to get back to writing songs. Please allow time to heal your pain,  meanwhile I strongly suggest you continue with health care and focus on another hobby i.e. write a book as this may help you focus on other goals that can be just as rewarding.
 
Take care, I wish you the very best.
 

Not again...

Locking this thread.
 

Note to SonicFan

 
Matt,  this is a MUSIC forum by a MUSIC SOFTWARE company to provide support for their software.  They allow "general discussion" in the Coffee House, but it is still expected to be primarily music related chat between musicians.
 
I have no way of knowing if you use Sonar or even own any Cakewalk software, but that is irrelevant because the subject you keep repeating over and over is not relevant for this forum, not even in the Coffee House.
 
It's not that we don't care,  there are some very caring people here, but you ignore most of what is said and just repeat the same thing over again.
 
If you wish to continue taking part in this forum please limit your posts to subjects relevant to the forum.
Any further threads you create that follow your past pattern will be removed without notification.
If you persist in the current line of posting in other threads, the posts will be removed and you will be banned (again).