Dave
Add me to the list of folks who have included her in their thoughts and prayers.
That is a lot to miss. It helps to know that the suffering for her is over but the bitterseeet memory for you is just starting. Time will help. But it is the rite of this passing which is most unplesant. Some get over it while others do not. I can see it in my dad. He has moved on but he still misses mom...they were together almost 60 years. So it would be understandable. Heal my friend....but no one says you have to forget.
Peace
Clifford