You need to read this book:
 
http://www.amazon.com/The-Power-Your-Subconscious-Mind/dp/1614270198
 
It is possibly one of the greatest books ever written. The way you are feeling and experiencing life right now is entirely your own doing. You have probably been feeding those messages into your conscious mind that you are not feeling emotions a million times by now. Your conscious mind feeds your subconscious mind and then your subconscious mind does everything in its power to make those things happen. You have even mentioned it many times in your posts. Your subconscious mind does not argue, it just follows what your conscious mind is feeding it.
 
Before you go to sleep at night and first thing in the morning just after you wake up repeat to yourself for only 10 to 15 minutes that you are normal and are capable of the full range of human emotions.
 
There are three important things to remember:
 
1 Repetition
2 Faith
3 Expectancy
 
Repetition. So dont just do this once! Do it for 3 months nonstop to start with.
Faith means you must have the belief that this will work. Belief is the law of life!
Expectancy means you are entitled to feel expectant about the fact that this will all change at some point and the results of your work will manifest.
 
To anyone who thinks life sucks, it's all your own fault and you are too lazy to do anything about it. Instead you just keep feeding those ideas in and your subconscious mind just keeps working real hard making it so. Try telling yourself everyday that life is amazing and you are really very happy. See what happens then. After a while you start waking up feeling very different. It is a little more complicated than that but reading that book and doing what he suggests in it is a great start.
 
In the book there are summaries at the end of the chapters and also it is full of scientific prayers. I have recorded the summaries and prayers to music. The summaries you can listen to anytime doing anything. The prayers are best done just before you go to sleep and first thing on waking up. I will gladly supply both to anyone really serious about changing their life.
 
The other night I went to bed feeling really down and depressed. (not normal for me just a difficult time with finances and selling a house) I nearly went to sleep that way but I listened to some summaries while going to sleep. In the morning I felt totally different. It's fine if you are totally asleep while either are playing. It's better in a way because the info bypasses everything and just goes direct to your subconscious mind. You just need some earbuds that are comfortable no matter how you are lying eg back or either side. If you are religious then this is great because you are very well trained in repetition and faith and those two are hard. You just have to learn to be expectant that is all.

Jeff Evans
You need to read this book:
 

 
It is possibly one of the greatest books ever written. The way you are feeling and experiencing life right now is entirely your own doing. You have probably been feeding those messages into your conscious mind that you are not feeling emotions a million times by now. Your conscious mind feeds your subconscious mind and then your subconscious mind does everything in its power to make those things happen. You have even mentioned it many times in your posts. Your subconscious mind does not argue, it just follows what your conscious mind is feeding it.
 
Before you go to sleep at night and first thing in the morning just after you wake up repeat to yourself for only 10 to 15 minutes that you are normal and are capable of the full range of human emotions.
 
There are three important things to remember:
 
1 Repetition
2 Faith
3 Expectancy
 
Repetition. So dont just do this once! Do it for 3 months nonstop to start with.
Faith means you must have the belief that this will work. Belief is the law of life!
Expectancy means you are entitled to feel expectant about the fact that this will all change at some point and the results of your work will manifest.
 
 
 
 
 

This is not the cause of my anhedonia.  My anhedonia was a result of severe depression that caused a physiological change in my brain.

All illness begins as a single thought process. (conscious or unconscious) Thoughts can be controlled. That is what is wrong with the medical profession. They keep telling us we have no control and it is out of our own hands. It is all in your hands. That is the part that is so amazing about this whole concept.
 
If they followed the processes in this book for curing mental illness I say things might be very different. One day they will get this and it will happen. Just as Nikola Tesla said we can tap into the charged ionosphere (300KV!) and power the whole world for free. When we stop digging up coal and creating energy the wrong way and figure this all out then it will all happen.
 
The problem here is that money is at the root of all this. They want to keep charging us for energy. Just as they want to keep pumping people full of drugs to solve mental issues. It keeps making lots of money for some and while we keep putting the money first and feeding greed we will never succeed as a race.
 
Give this a shot. It is free. It is just an approach that is all. If you are willing to give this a shot it might just turn you around.

I am now going to explain something else as to why I value pleasure so much which is that there are characters in anime (Japanese cartoons) that I perceive as superior god-like beings with superior god-like personalities. A few example of these characters are Cell and Vegeta from the anime Dragonball Z. They are examples of the most awesome characters since they are god-like with god-like powers and are megalomaniacs who wish to have power and control in their lives and have superior god-like personalities and wish to obtain god-like powers.
 
Now there is a term known as "Anthropomorphism" which is when you attribute your perceived personality of other living things, objects, and people, to other living things, objects, and people (including your own self in which you feel like a different person, but you can still act as the exact same person). Therefore, when I had my ability to experience pleasure in the past, I would anthropomorphize these characters as a part of me in order to feel their awesome superior god-like life essence coursing through me. This gave me superior intense god-like feelings of pleasure since I felt like I was these characters. Pleasure, to me, is "life force (essence)" that is the ultimate defining aspect of a human being which will not only make you a human being, but can also enhance you to a level that is beyond human metaphorically speaking (which would be enhanced to the superior god-like status of those characters). These characters were, therefore, a part of my conscious and they have, metaphorically speaking (not literally speaking), bestowed me with their superior god-like life essence. This is what made me feel powerful in a superior god-like sense.
 
Another example would be with the character Amy Rose (a female hedgehog) from Sonic the Hedgehog. I perceive her as a superior god-like being not only because she is not human, but is an animal-like being in human form which I would define as an "angel" since angels are animal-like beings in human form. She is also a superior god-like being since she has an unreal personality (personalities that normal human beings don't normally possess). Her personality is very fantasy-like and vigorous. This is unlike the personality of normal human beings since the personality of normal human beings are more "settled" and "down to Earth." So it would seem as though the creators of anime make the personality of characters more life-like as well as superior and god-like to match their superior god-like world (environments) as well as their superior god-like forms. Amy (as well as other such innocent god-like characters) display expressions of innocence, love, etc. that is beyond human (more intense) and profound that expresses their world and forms that are also beyond human.
 
Therefore, I have also embraced Amy as a part of my conscious as well which also made me feel powerful. But it did not make me feel powerful the way those other characters Cell and Vegeta did. Those other characters made me feel an "enraged epic" form of superior god-like pleasure. The form of superior god-like pleasure I have received from Amy would be a feeling of intense innocence and love.
 
In order for me to anthropomorphize myself as different characters when I had my pleasure in the past, it would all depend on what mood I'm in. If I was in an innocent and loving mood, then my mind would relate that to characters such as Amy and would anthropomorphize myself as Amy herself. Same thing with other characters such as Cell and Vegeta if I were instead in an epic and powerful mood. I could even anthropomorphize myself as different characters by literally acting as such characters in my own mind. However, if I was in a bad mood, my mind would anthropomorphize me with non-anime real-life personalities that I hate.  Now how I feel normally as a person is when I don't have any personalities (anthropomorphizations) applied to me and this is how I feel most of the time throughout the day each day.  But I notice that as I go out and meet new people, my mind will then automatically anthropomorphize me based on my perceived personality through my interaction with this person when I meet with and talk with this person face to face.
 
Even if these characters I love were to tell me to accept a lifelong loss of pleasure that never gets better or fully recovers, that would not cause me to feel any anger towards them or any disappointment at all towards them whatsoever.  This is obviously because I know who they are and they are superior god-like beings with superior god-like personalities to me no matter what.
 
Also, it's not how others think of you that determines who you are.  Any personal meanings we create in life are all subjective and personal.  Therefore, you can personalize yourself as being any character without any opinions from others as to who you are from their perspectives. 
 
Now aside from that, I think you can see now why pleasure is so important to me and why I view it as the sole defining life force of a human being. Without that, then not only am I denied the awesome epic as well as the loving innocence of these superior god-like characters, but I am also denied of my own life essence as a human being that I normally experience on a daily basis through doing activities I enjoy such as playing videogames, etc. My plan was to tap into and channel these superior god-like feelings of pleasure from those superior god-like characters in composing music that is exceptional and beyond human in terms of its powerful conveyed superior god-like emotions and to experience these said feelings through my own created compositions as well as through listening to music. I also wanted to channel and experience my own normal feelings of pleasure as well through composing and listening to music. But this has all failed.
 
In conclusion, I would like to say that I am a megalomaniac who wishes to regain the most important thing to him (which would be my pleasure). I wish to have power, control, and dominion through pure pleasure alone over my life, over suffering and despair, and over other people who do not wish to help me, who have little to no value towards my pleasure, and who are mean to me. I will NOT be content, be at peace, or accept my life until I have my pleasure back. Even now as I am saying this, my own personality is being anthropomorhpized as Vegeta who is a psychopath who will not back down until he has his "powers" back and is able to rule and dominate over his life again. It's just my own personality that is being anthropomorphized as Vegeta's and not my pleasure since I don't have any pleasure at the moment. But I swear, I will try all I can to regain my lost "powers" (my pleasure) and I will rule and dominate over this life through my pleasure in composing and through just being happy in life in general with very little suffering and despair in my life. And THEN I can experience the awesome life essence (pleasure) of these superior god-like characters as well as my own normal human pleasure once again.  
 
If I live my life accepting my loss of pleasure and not doing anything to try and regain it, then my mind will give me anthropomorphizations (personalities attributed to me) that I hate.  But if I live my life not accepting it and become "enraged" to try to gain it back through therapy, medication, etc., then my mind will give me personalities that I love such as the personality of Vegeta (although I cannot feel pleasure from these personalities at the moment).  So this is a main reason why I will only choose to live my life in ways that will give me attributed personalities that I love.  Otherwise, I will instead have attributed inferior personalities that I hate and will forever hate myself and my life as a result.  Just like how I hate people who have little to no value towards my feelings of pleasure who tell me to accept, be at peace, and be content with a lifelong loss of pleasure that never gets better or fully recovers, these anthropomorphizations (attributed personalities) are also exactly the same in that sense.  In other words, I would have become these very people I hate by living my life through acceptance, being at peace, and being content with a lifelong loss of pleasure that never gets better or fully recovers.

ZeldaAdmirer

Jeff Evans
You need to read this book:
 

 
It is possibly one of the greatest books ever written. The way you are feeling and experiencing life right now is entirely your own doing. You have probably been feeding those messages into your conscious mind that you are not feeling emotions a million times by now. Your conscious mind feeds your subconscious mind and then your subconscious mind does everything in its power to make those things happen. You have even mentioned it many times in your posts. Your subconscious mind does not argue, it just follows what your conscious mind is feeding it.
 
Before you go to sleep at night and first thing in the morning just after you wake up repeat to yourself for only 10 to 15 minutes that you are normal and are capable of the full range of human emotions.
 
There are three important things to remember:
 
1 Repetition
2 Faith
3 Expectancy
 
Repetition. So dont just do this once! Do it for 3 months nonstop to start with.
Faith means you must have the belief that this will work. Belief is the law of life!
Expectancy means you are entitled to feel expectant about the fact that this will all change at some point and the results of your work will manifest.
 
 
 
 
 

This is not the cause of my anhedonia.  My anhedonia was a result of severe depression that caused a physiological change in my brain.

And again I say that you need to seek professional help which no one here can provide for you. I'm not even sure what it is that you think you will get from us here?

That is good advice Beagle

Now the reason why I say that even Hitler himself is a better person is not only because my personal experience of pleasure says that it is the only thing that defines your own personal value and worth as a human being. But I also say this because it is an exaggeration and expression of how frustrated and angry I am with my meaningless and worthless life of no pleasure since pleasure is the only greatest thing to me in life. I will create shock value and revolutionize the perspective of others to make them think twice about them viewing other things in life as greater value than their own pleasure as an expression of my rage and frustration towards my life of no pleasure. Me expressing this will also be likely to make others take me seriously and realize just how important pleasure is for me in life and make them have compassion and understanding towards my loss of pleasure and just how important pleasure is for me in life.

I also said before that I have found at least a little bit of value and worth in my life in trying to fully regain my lost pleasure through medication, therapy, etc. So if this is the case, then why can't I also find greater value and worth towards other things in life than my pleasure? It would be because it all still comes back to my own personal experience of pleasure being the greatest thing to me in life and my personal experience of how losing that through depression and anhedonia is the worst thing for me. Therefore, the only life I find to have at least some value and worth would be for me to live my life in trying to fully recover the very thing that made my life worth living and of great value in the first place (which would, again, be my pleasure). Again, I realize that bringing others pleasure in life is important for them. But despite the fact that I do value the pleasure of others and view it as important in life to bring them pleasure, this still does not make it anything good from my own perspective since all my thoughts, perceptions, and created meanings are neutral (neither good or bad) and it is only my pleasure that is good since I am not in the minds of others and can't experience their pleasure. Even me living my life trying to fully regain my lost pleasure is neutral as well at this point. However, I still do these things anyway since I still value my own pleasure just as much as anyone else's. But no matter how much value I put towards the pleasure of others, that will never take away from the value I have towards my own pleasure since my personal experience of pleasure says to me that it is the greatest thing for me in life. So even if I were to have someone in my life whom I have immense value and love towards despite my absence of pleasure (such as my mom or anyone else), I would still feel very depressed and enraged towards my own loss of pleasure despite me living solely to bring these people pleasure. Also, having less value towards my own pleasure would make me the lesser person with a lesser life as I stated earlier in my writing anyway. Therefore, me having both full value towards my own pleasure and full value towards the pleasure of others is the closest thing right now to making me a great person despite my own absence of pleasure. However, I am nowhere near as great as I would be if I had my full pleasure in life right now.  Also, even me perceiving myself as being at least somewhat great for having full value towards my own pleasure and the pleasure of others still does not make me or my life anything good or great at all.  It just simply makes me perceive me and my life as at least being of some value and worth despite the fact that me and my life have absolutely no value and worth without my pleasure.

I admire you ZeldaAdmirer. In just eight posts you have written more words than I have in total on this entire site.
 
I hope you take pleasure in at least that.

Jeff Evans
1 Repetition
2 Faith
3 Expectancy

In 12 Step Programs that is referred to of "fake it until you make it".
 

bapu
I admire you ZeldaAdmirer. In just eight posts you have written more words than I have in total on this entire site.
 
I hope you take pleasure in at least that.

I must say that is a lot of words crammed in 8 posts. I think you could write a book easily.
kakku