I've had people here since Saturday cutting pine trees, chain saws all day... I hope they finish today.
 
My wife just got the results from the dermatologist, we went last week. She has a squamous cell on her forehead that they are going to treat with blue ray but there is a basal cell at her lip that they want to do Mohs surgery on, it will leave a hole and a scar. Of course they can do restorative surgery but I feel so bad for her. This has been a hard year that just keeps on giving.
 
I have not even gotten to setting up my new DAW. Maybe this afternoon I'll get started, sometimes I just lose the "want to". Need to keep going though.
 
Thanks.. I know I have friends here and I appreciate you.
 
>>>They called with my biopsy results today and I have an (early) squamous cell TOO! It even gets better... they want to treat it with some cream that the pharmacy said will cost me over 1k. Great! Oh, and the tree people still aren't finished and they broke a post to the chain link fence and bent a top rail TOO!! Wonderful. I think I am going to call someone else to finish it. Plus I get to go to the DENTIST tomorrow!! Ain't life grand.
 
It could ALWAYS be worse, really I'm not complaining... it is sort of funny. I thought today how much I am like Monk... I had to put a blue bulldog clip on something I always put a red clip on and it sort of bothered me, LOL. Not as much as when the glasses or silverware aren't put in the cabinet and drawer the way I like it (the way they obviously GO)... or the dish towels. I usually take them out and redo them. I think maybe I AM back to norbal!
 
J

I'm so sorry to hear the bad news.  Prayers and best wishes to both of you. 

jbow
 
 
Maybe this afternoon I'll get started, sometimes I just lose the "want to". Need to keep going though.
 

 
I don't want to change the focus from you with this long story below; but you touched a chord with me as I too found a way to "keep going" and your post above moved me.
 
In 2012 I found I had salivary gland cancer; it had been misdiagnosed since 2005 or before. At this point, it was massive (~3-5") and the surgeon told me he could cut off my face in a 13 hour surgery to save my life (of course there would be restorative surgery that would follow).
 
I said no and made preparations to die. I had already quit playing guitar for over a year because of the constant bleeding and it was impossible to sing. I "died" in Jan 2013. I was in ICU for over 6 days and they brought me back over and over (heart stoppage from massive blood loss). Another doctor attempted a punt, and blitzed me with radiation for three days. The bleeding stopped and when I woke up he talked me into another 7 weeks of daily radiation in the face to shrink the tumor. I lost my hair, taste, smell, eyesight, 80 pounds...they gave me one year (until Easter 2014) but that was what we signed on for...enough time to get affairs in order.
 
Easter came this year and I kept getting better, cutting down my own trees, some 25 of them. Then I got cocky at the end of August and shattered my hip socket.
 
Now I was forced to sit in the studio again. I hadn't played guitar or written a song in over three years. I had only done some small freebies for friends e.g. karaoke stuff.
 
Then it all came back. Some blisters on my fingers, then a new song, then some new productions from old friends...now the music won't leave my head day or night, just like it used to be. I made it back to "me" again and I am so happy!
 
So, yeah, like you say, there is a deep need to keep going :)
 
I will pray for you and your wife.
 

Very good to hear on your recovery Robby.....you have a lot to be thankful for. My father just passed away 2 days ago from stage 4 liver cancer with multiple metastasis to other organs. Through his undeniable Faith, he very quietly and patiently accepted everything his condition brought onto him, actully was in good spirits, and had completely resigned himself to God. He never complained about anything and didn't want much pain meds either, but I'm certain he internally suffered quite a bit.
Just being positive and openly accepting his condition had made it much more bearable for him and even all of us.
 
Julien, I truly hope and pray that your wife will also be given the strength to go through whatever this condition brings out in her and wish both of you the very best in getting a positive outcome.   

Sorry to hear that, Julien.
My best wishes to you and your wife.

Keep staying positive Julien and for the rest of you that have and are going through cancer treatments.  Our IT guy's wife just made a miraculous recovery from breast cancer this year.  My old CFO has cancer but through treatment, he seems to be knocking it down dramatically.  It is easy to say "hang in there and think positive" but there really is a lot to be said for a good strong positive outlook in these critical times.  I wish you all the very best and will pray for you.
 
Jimmy

Prayers for your family, Julien. We'll be thinking of you.

Thank you all, I knew I had friends here, I mean that. Mesh, I am sorry for your loss.
Bobby, He moves in mysterious ways.
I am sure Cindy will be OK. I need to just make time for the things I want to do. Life is for living right?
 
Julien

Hoping for the best for you and your wife. Hang in there. . .

Julien - prayers for your wife.  I hope she can get thru this and still have some dignity with restorative surgery.
 
robby my old friend!  I haven't talked to you in a long time.  I had feared the worst when I hadn't heard anything from you in so long (as I knew you had cancer last time we spoke).  I'm very happy to hear of your recovery!