marcus3
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I always told people I don't want to go college I'm having fun just playing and composing and that all I want do.
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when I'm writing I don't think of music theory rules. I use my ears and feelings and mind. 
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This may be a bit strange, but take a hint from folks like Peter Hammill or Roy Harper. It's not about the notes and the music itself, as much as it is about how to color what you are saying, and both of them use their vocal style to do so, a lot more than the music behind them ever will. However, they also help create some unreal moments because of it.
 
It's not for everybody.
 
The better you can express yourself and your feelings, the better you will be. It's the only secret in ANY of the arts, that you need to know. The rest is just a bunch of people making sure you know less than them!