mike_mccue
I'm thinking maybe I should start hanging out at Pensado's Place till I figure out what I'm doing.
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The tough part of all this Mike, is that no one can teach you how to do this ... this is about you and your fiber, your metal, your string, and your heart!
THAT, needs a bit of definition on its own ... and I found out that for me, the best LEARNING was when I let it go, and completed that "vision", regardless of how it comes out, and then I can evaluate it.
We're so damn stuck up that every reason and belief is always outside of ourselves ... if you can figure it out on your own ... the best engineer is ALWAYS going to stand back, and let it flow ... there is nothing that you can do to improve it.
Time to go see that Tom Dowd DVD again ... it's about the "moment" and has nothing to do with anything else, and externals, will only confuse you more ... and more!
The way I see it, it is a process issue that could be easily cured with a couple of exercises, similar to acting exercises ... you doubt yourself too much to know what your "acting" with an instrument is all about ... the moment you do, no one will make you better than you already are! Willit be enough to "make it" ... who knows? Hopefully so ... but in so many ways, inner changes as you suggest on any piece, means that the "flow" that was there originally, is gone already ... though it was a flow that you did not recognize, and you thought ... was not right, on account of your conditioning and "knowledge" of all you know about music!
This is exactly what I go through in writing, and the reason why I don't touch it until that "piece" or scene, or chapter, is done. After that, I find that only punctuation and a little spelling is the issue ... not the "music".