Hi,
It's a good question ...
short answer .. you will all say that I am evasive! Long answer, will confuse every single one of you, because you can not see the link between it all ... a person in the middle! Theater - I have "quit" theater, with the exception of discussing acting, directing and its history. I do not (partially) care for the fame/star routine and the continuous fascination with the same musicals and inanity. I guess I do not have the patience for that at all. I do love, with all my heart, and had my greatest successes, experimenting with the rest, and specially modern theater. Some of this work, was expanded later to work with a few musician friends.
Film - My first love, and specially directing. Have made several films and even had one for Kevin Ayers, that unfortunately can not get released because Ray Manzarek would not allow me to use their small bit on the film. Considering the bastard came from a "film" like band with a singer that lived in his own film, I always thought it was hippocritical, but when he denied it to me, was a time when the band was not getting royalties and were caught in many fights. Still, there is a time when you love/appreciate your children, and you do NOT stab them! I have, for the past 30 years done film reviews of foreign film, since that is something that few enjoy and watch and it just shows the average xenophobic attitude of most folks ... something that I lost, when growing up in three languages and three continents!
Music - From my own family's huge collection of LP's, over 3K of them and 200 operas, there is nothing that I have heard that has not swayed me. It is more magnetic than sex, even, if one can say that ... and I can easily live on music. Due to communication and language issues, I never had the chance to have lessons and get better, and perhaps play music, which I believe I would have become some kind of a professional with it. The dedication and love to the music is too deep!
.... and today, at 64 ... the day I retire, I either become a film maker or a musician ... I have no idea which, since both of those,
for me, are extremely visual endeavours, and are the light and love of my life!
My films will all have the experimental edge on them, and they will not be "conventional" in any sense of the word ... but folks here don't know what I am saying ... if they do not see the most un-conventional film makers the world over! They have no idea, what it means ... except that some think that I am just being difficult and hiding somewhere ... what would a small cock, chubby guy have to hide? To appease your ideas of what you don't understand in a person?
As I have said, many times, it is about what I see inside, be it a dream or a vision, I do not differentiate in that area of myself ... there is a side that sees things, and they are different, and that is what will be in film, or music ... plain and simple.
There is no secret.
There is no hope.
There is no desire.
it just is!
It's like a "photograph" ... and you have never seen anything like it before ... and for the record, those are the artists I love the most, IN ANY DISCIPLINE, but here, as in other boards, people have this funny idea that music is from Mars, Painting is from Venus, Writing is from Jupiter, and Acting is from Pluto!
There is only one source of energy ... and it can perform in a thousand different ways ... and how it all comes out is given a name ... that everyone does not understand, and even I spend time trying to figure it out!
Go ahead ... and think I'm evasive. You're only fooling yourself!
post edited by Moshkito - 2015/09/12 14:54:03