hello kamelodic, I can understand why you are frustrated. I wish I could personally help you, but I am new to Sonar too. However, listen to what the other senior forum members say and ask. They will do their best, but the can't do it for you because they are not sitting there with you.
I personally have watched a ton of videos to learn more, and I have had to start over from scratch more than once. It took me 6 months to figure out how to even record audio consistently.
So although you are very frustrated I suggest to relax a little.
Also, as far as cracked software goes; imagine it like this, if you get a recording contract, and you have a hit song and everyone rips it for free from other sites, and you don't get your just rewards for all your work, would you like that?
I believe in you, you can do this, the learning curve is steep, but the personal rewards are great, so be patient. It will work out if you take the time to allow it to.
I can't wait to hear your first song!
Jesse