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Re: really depressed and wants to give up on music all together
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Jarsve ... I believe that those who think that they make music just for themselves are fooling themselves. Because you always make music for others to listen to. Sometimes it’s really obvious like Beethoven’s piano pieces. All were written too girls. The best thing is to be honest about it. ... Regardless of what I say, you are not going to like it. Hopefully you can see that there are different people, and that many of them do it for different reasons. Your statement is incorrect. And, on top of it, you are insinuating that all artists and the like are too stupid to know what they are doing, and why. There are just as many folks out there, and before us, that did not do this for an audience, and I believe you are confusing a means to an end, and because of it, you are adding a quandary to your inner self ... the freedom you want, you do not believe you can have with an audience, and at that point, you think that with your guitar crowing, you will stand out better and get more attention! And play the songs they want! There are more failed folks out there because of the ego side of things, check out Hollywood, if you don't believe me, than there are folks actually taking their inner self seriously and doing things so they are not enslaved by a system that is predicated on robbing your soul. The proverbial "city of lost children" ... where your dreams get stolen! And you make a statement that supports that system! Jarsve ... Another thing to consider. If someone is depressed. Don’t say they just have to buckle up. That makes it worse. Like putting even more bad self-esteem and load on the shoulders that carry too much already. So please don’t do that. Just try to be nice and patient. ... You are mis-interpreting it badly. It was not designed that way, and you can not see the difference. If you want my opinion, ask, otherwise, this is not worth the hassle and discussion. Your examples are very poor, and an excuse to not discuss your own inner disposition ... this is about you, not anyone else, and you have to make a choice ... but remember, it will change your point of view on this subject! Stop looking "outside" for an answer will be your best friend forever! Specially as an artist! Because anything else you look around for with be all over the place and more confusing than helpful. REMEMBER ... the "source" is inside you, not outside and that has NOTHING to do with an audience, and this is what you are confusing!
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Re: really depressed and wants to give up on music all together
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☄ Helpfulby Jarsve 2015/09/15 13:04:53
So, Lincoln was right? “You can please some of the people all of the time, you can please all of the people some of the time, but you can’t please all of the people all of the time”.
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☄ Helpfulby Jarsve 2015/09/15 12:43:52
Although I'm sure there are and have been artists out there who have never once sought to share their art with or have it recognized by others they would be outliers. Of course many or most of us do it out of love and enjoyment of just creating it first and foremost but almost all, if asked (and answered truthfully), would say they'd like to have their art appreciated by others. I think that was the point being made. Not that all artists FIRST motivation is success. More that on some level everything we create is, in some way, on some level, created for others to enjoy (or perhaps revile or simply acknowledge exists) as well. We are a social animal hardwired to interact with our own species. Even art that is intended to repel, disgust and infuriate others is created to interact with those "others". Even a Bhuddist or Hindi creating and destroying something like colored sand art in total isolation isn't necessarily doing it in a personal vacuum. It may not be for other humans to see but there is the idea that somehow the universe is an unseen spectator appreciating the effort and beauty. And even the artists who TRULY have NONE of those external motivations are still trying to garner some appreciation from/deliver enjoyment to a conscious entity. Themselves.
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Re: really depressed and wants to give up on music all together
2015/09/15 12:13:13
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☄ Helpfulby Jarsve 2015/09/15 12:45:24
Good post Beeps. And even the artists who TRULY have NONE of those external motivations are still trying to garner some appreciation from/deliver enjoyment to a conscious entity. Themselves. Very nicely put.
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Re: really depressed and wants to give up on music all together
2015/09/15 12:20:49
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☄ Helpfulby Jarsve 2015/09/15 12:45:26
Thanks, but I feel we have strayed WAY too far off the Coffee House mission statement. BECAN!! and sometimes munkeys... ;-p
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Re: really depressed and wants to give up on music all together
2015/09/15 12:55:43
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I'm not drunk. I just love hitting the helpful button! That was precisely my point Beepster. I'm not good at words, but you nailed it. Thank you.
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Re: really depressed and wants to give up on music all together
2015/09/15 13:05:37
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☄ Helpfulby Jarsve 2015/09/15 13:25:22
I can only assume that English is not your first language (being from Norway and all) so I think you do pretty darned good, Jarsve. If you asked me to be as articulate as you are in my own second language (French) I would fail miserably. Cheers, buddy.
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Re: really depressed and wants to give up on music all together
2015/09/15 13:31:29
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Moshkito I think that we talk about two different things. So when I consider your possession and wives I agree with you. And the last point in my post you referred to was not meant to you. It was just a reminder to all that depression is more than just feelings. And we all should remember that. I know we say we are depressed when something bad happens. That is not depression. Its jus bad feelings. Depression happens out of nothing when you should be happy. And when your life seems to be top. I was referring to that. Not people feeling bad for some reason. And it was not for you for being anything. It’s just a friendly reminder that we all have to think different when we encounter people being depresses. And by the way. I don’t like self loving egos. I try my best not to stand out like that. I am just not as smart as you guys. And when trying to say something I tell something else.
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Re: really depressed and wants to give up on music all together
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☄ Helpfulby Jarsve 2015/09/15 16:27:26
Depression is a complicated illness. It has a mental component but it can also have some real physical symptoms also. Fatigue, aches and pains are very common. I wish you well in getting it managed. Where there is life, there is hope.
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Re: really depressed and wants to give up on music all together
2015/09/15 16:19:32
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Re: really depressed and wants to give up on music all together
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☄ Helpfulby Jarsve 2015/09/16 04:13:12
ampfixer Depression is a complicated illness. It has a mental component but it can also have some real physical symptoms also. Fatigue, aches and pains are very common. I wish you well in getting it managed. Where there is life, there is hope.
true that,i remember at one point being physically unable to get out of bed-the symptoms of depression can defy logic. i was lucky to get professional help because sometimes life just throws too much at us and we just cant cope. speak to an expert-there is usually a reason for why you feel depressed and it is usually something you can change or avoid. now,when i feel the black dog nipping at my heels i turn around,kick it in the arse and move on. treat it like you would the flu-rest,care and medicine if necessary and try to avoid forums-opinions are one thing,professional help is another. good luck
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Re: really depressed and wants to give up on music all together
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☄ Helpfulby Jarsve 2015/09/16 04:18:24
I know about depression , it is something I have had to learn to deal with and accept all my life ….. There is a side of depression that you almost never hear people talking about …. Depression can signal to the person that is suffering from it that they have so much more potential to act and produce much more satisfying results in their life than they may be currently in a position doing …. This actually can add to the depression if the person is unable to see that their depression is signaling a time to make a change and move onward to more satisfying outlets of self expression …. This aspect of depression is almost hypnotic ( for lack of a better term ) I have often gotten stuck for long periods of time in that endless loop type aspect of depression … Unable to move or make an effective change …. sort of like a deer crossing the road that gets blinded by a cars headlight and stands there motionless … Over time I have found that after a close honest personal inventory .. Depression has robbed me of some of the best years of my life . It has impacted my relationships on all levels and my ability to sustain a music career was also impacted dramatically … The one thing that I did have going for me was I stopped using drugs and self medicating myself …. Booze , pills, drugs ….and any activity that caused a hard crash …..i let go of a number of years ago When all is said and done , I do not have any answers for any one else . I think most folks in this world are doing the best they can …even if it don't make any sense to me…. I can say for myself that I have had to learn new coping skills and I have had to learn to give myself a break when it comes to keeping my expectations of myself and others in check …. It's a tough road and sometimes the best thing I can do is simply just get out of my own way … I like to keep it simple . I do my best to make time to find a few moments here and there as they happen to be totally present in the moment ….the past or the future I have no control over … Careful introspection has taught me that 99% of the things that cause me fear and anxiety are of my own making … It seems that there is an aspect of the mind that likes to create all kinds of drama and judgments ….Maybe it's part of the ego's struggle to dominate and exert it's will …Honestly , I don't know as I stopped trying to figure that one out ….. All I know is that aspect of the mind and emotional body needs to take a back seat and come along for the ride … If I can remember to plant myself where I am in the moment and then take a few deep breaths , this action helps ground me and keep my depression at bay … Kenny
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Re: really depressed and wants to give up on music all together
2015/09/16 09:42:06
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☄ Helpfulby Jarsve 2015/09/16 10:24:37
Hi, ampfixer Depression is a complicated illness. It has a mental component but it can also have some real physical symptoms also. Fatigue, aches and pains are very common. I wish you well in getting it managed. Where there is life, there is hope.
No doubt. And this is where a director, or helper is important, and can help define a detail and moment that the person can work with and still perform. However, the best schools of acting, and the most important ones, work to break all/any mental barriers to any performance, and this is the part that is difficult to mention here, because most think that all they have to do is know their guitar part (so to speak!), and that's it, and all of a sudden they are in front of an audience of 5 or 500 or 5000, and they go ... wow ... and freeze. Performance arts, are not for the weak, and the un-afraid. Music schools are afraid to work on these sides/parts of the performance techniques, because the majority of things they know is the notes and chords, not the dimension and interpretation of music itself. You can easily see that in the output of musicians, in many schools ... they are all the same technical folks ... with no heart behind it, or that heart is hidden behind the mechanics. You have simply been taught "professional" mechanics. You have to take your step forward, and slowly break out of it, but the more comfortable of actors and actresses, you will find them in theater, because it is much more than just learning their lines, and they know it. Film is less imposing, unless you consider the camera abusive, which is the case with some directors (won't discuss this here!), but something that can give a band an illusion about themselves, that they do not have on stage, and hurt their over all performance value. I'm not the expert in this area, but in all my work, I have never had a single issue with this and any actor/actress, and one of the best jobs, EVER, by any of the folks I ever worked with, was done by a girl that had never been on the stage before, and she had the lead and was the point of interest in the whole thing. She not only nailed it, but got herself a great ovation. I, personally, and I like to help kids develop their little art works, or writing or music, and give them little pointers to help the material not come off so boring, think, in a naive sort of way, that if you are afraid of your material and what you are doing, that you need to step back and look at it better, as this "inner fight", is going to prevent your development in the art form ... that's not to say that Susan or Julibee, or Karyn, should hang up their shoes, but all it tells me is that someone's teacher was so worried about mistakes, that working on a piece becomes a "job" and not a wonderful day in the life of the music and your heart! And I take issue with those "teachers", because they are killing music, and people's ability to express themselves! How is it that I can get a kid to finish a picture, and they will be proud of its finish when they show me, and instead for an adult here, the first thing most do is ... is it any good? Do you like it? ... and you miss out on the process itself while "inside of it", which is the BEST, and the ONLY teacher you will ever need! The rest is talk, including what I say, more importantly when you/me/anyone accidentally take it away from the moment that can teach you ... into the area that only confuses you.
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Music is not about notes and chords! My poem is not about the computer or monitor or letters! It's about how I was able to translate it from my insides!
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☄ Helpfulby Jarsve 2015/09/16 10:38:28
Hi, "Depression" So strange ... if there is one thing in my life that has NEVER been depressing for me, it is my writing, be it a poem, story, film review, music review, or even the quiet moments that I can sit with my 2 meager instruments and find something or other ... these moments are never something that I found in my mind ... it's like the mere sound of it, helps create a new world that also wants to have a life! Thus, for me, anything related to the arts, has never been "depressing", or "scaring", because it has been the one thing in my life that has given me the most satisfaction and love. To the point that I never even had the real chance of getting married and having a love for the rest of my life! But I have plenty of literature, plenty of music, and so much art around me ... that people look at it, when they walk in ... and you know right away that they don't get it, and can't handle it ... because it is so foreign to them! I maybe alone, but never lonely, as the saying goes! It is, really hard, for me to relate to folks when they say things like that. My own father, got well known in the literary world, and it wasn't for audience attention. He was a scholar amidst idiots and rapists picking up coeds for their enjoyment. As kids we met a lot of very well known writers in the world of literature ... and you really think that Aldous Huxley, TS Elliot, Ernest Hemingway, Carlos Amado, Gabriel Garcia M and so many others ... and I can not conceive of any of them as being "lost" ... they were all extremely alive and bright inside ... they had colors that only kids can imagine, since adults lose the "colors" as they get older! To me, that is some of the greatest enjoyment in life. So sorry that no woman, has ever arrived in my life to over come that ... but having 3 major culture changes in my young life was very difficult and only turned me "inside" ... and helped me see that "inside" in so many writers, when you have a library of 45k books at home, and 3k LP's of music ... you gain something ... I call it a bit of "perspective" on the arts, specially, but in the end, hearing this communication here is extremely sad, and I can't help thinking how empty some folks must be to not know the difference. Wish I could help better! good luck and love, is all I can say!
Music is not about notes and chords! My poem is not about the computer or monitor or letters! It's about how I was able to translate it from my insides!
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Re: really depressed and wants to give up on music all together
2015/09/19 10:36:18
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Thank you guys. You have helped me get over the depression for now. So thank you. I don’t know if it’s you people. But suddenly I got over 100 fans on Reverbnation. So if it’s you I will say thank you from the deepest of my heart. Also if there is anyone needing any I can provide, don’t hesitate to ask for it. been starting to write a new song too.
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Re: really depressed and wants to give up on music all together
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☄ Helpfulby Jarsve 2015/09/19 11:03:12
Nice one Jarsve, rock on!
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Re: really depressed and wants to give up on music all together
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☄ Helpfulby Jarsve 2015/09/19 11:10:35
Jarsve ... been starting to write a new song too. ...
The best medicine, too! One last thing ... for me, there are times when I might get down on myself, because I can not get anything written, and I have found that each time, it is nothing but an inner change inside ... and once you "change" your process, all of a sudden ... it's all there and more. I think that sometimes we have to stop, and smell the flowers ... and let some new and innovative thoughts and ideas to get in to our stuck brains ... in the end, these "breaks" (I call them mental breaks), are excellent and even a lot of fun. So, the new poem, comes out different, than before!!! All the better!
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Re: really depressed and wants to give up on music all together
2015/09/19 11:20:03
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Hi, I had my share of the Firesign Theater and their mind police!
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Re: really depressed and wants to give up on music all together
2015/10/04 22:16:41
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bapu What other people think of me is none of my business.
Now that's funny!!!!    ..................................... Last month, (Sept) was my 10th year anniversary since my last solo gig out in public, which was a Wine & Cheese festival of about 400 people. I still play at home and learn new songs (- now up to about 800 -) in case I ever decide to get out there again, but the reason I stopped playing live gigs was simply because I just got sick and tired of being treated like sh*t. I love to play and will always play - even if it means at home from here on out. But I refuse to allow myself to be treated like dirt. So now I at home sing to my God on His heavenly throne for His pleasure - and of course also to His Dear Son, who is seated at His right Hand. Imagine His delight to enjoy the talent developed and returned to Him that He blessed me with so many decades ago in the first place. No better audience could I have, who never miss one of my gigs at home - nor even one of my notes played or sung. Do your art (playing, writing music) for your pleasure and your purposes. Think of all those painters - Picaso, Rembrandt, Monet, etc. etc. who probably never thought anyone would see their artwork, let alone love and buy it - some of which now goes for millions of dollars. You can bet they got down and depressed at times. But they did art for art's sake - because they loved it - period! And because they couldn't stay away, I'll bet, regardless of what other circumstances affected or influenced them. Hang in there Mang! It's normal for us artists to go in and out of our passion for our greatest love - very normal. And most other people would never understand it.
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