Maybe you could seek out open mic nights and meet some new people - who knows what it could lead to. Shaking things up by experimenting with other genres and singing again could freshen things up a bit for you.

What other people think of me is none of my business.

Dude... your compositions are great. Don't give up writing/playing/trying. Even if commercial success is eluding you at the moment just the joy of creating should be enough to continue.
 
I get really bummed out because of a lot of the extremely crummy stuff in my life. Music is the thing that helps me ignore all that crap and keep going.
 
I've been working on/with your song for the entire summer and not once have I gotten tired of listening to it or playing around with it. You have a lot of talent in my opinion and I'm not just saying that to be nice.
 
Feel better and you should totally start playing guitar again. To me playing guitar is instant happiness.
 
Cheers.

Sometimes I feel you just have to bite the bullet and take a good hard look at where your at ….
 
I look at it like playing a guitar or something …some things may come easy and somethings may come hard …
I never thought quitting once-over that ….It's a personal thing maybe and in my life regardless of whether anything I ever play amounts to a hill of beans in anyone else's eyes or ears for that matter ….
 
I stayed with it because I was a lost soul and music was a gift …
Whomever the power in charge is threw me a life-preserver by giving me the desire to play music ….
 
All the other stuff related to music and finding creative outlets that involve getting it on with other musicians can seem overwhelming at times….
it is a pretty much dog eat world out there unless you are lucky enough to find people to work with that understand that being a team player and using music as a form of expression that has a possible attribute of serving a higher purpose …
other than being King of the Hill for a day …
example , playing music allows me to bring a few brief moments of joy and entertainment to peoples lives ….
 
Take this for what it is worth …
I was told once that there are 2 primary forms of musical expressions once you decide to share music with the world …
there is music for enlightenment and there is music for entertainment …..
Both of those paths of musical expression have their own set of forks in the road .
Now of course that is only a broad generalization , because music itself also involves so many other variables including personal preferences and compromises that occur every step of the musicians journey …..
 
What I am about to say may pi$$ some people off and I'm not the least bit sorry to say this …..
 
A big part of the wheels that are moving in the music business right now how absolutely nothing to do with music 
it has to do with commerce and generating money …..
 
When I play a bar they don't care about how good I play they care more about how much booze I sell and is the club crowded and full….
( that has been a while folks almost 3 years ) There is nothing wrong with that imho  once you know the game .
 
I feel it is important to see exactly what I am up against when it comes to the things that are absolutely out of my control  it is bad enough I have to learn to get out of my own way … that is simply just part of personal growth and implementing effective change .
 
The thing that helps me the most when it comes to dealing with the assorted musical  issues I face  are based on a very simple concept that happens to be a historical fact in US history ……
 
When people first discovered Gold here in the US there was an explosion of people that sought their fame and fortunes  by hitching their dreams on becoming rich mining for Gold ….
It is somewhat a given that it is a historical fact that the people that made the most money were the people that outfitted the miners and sold them the gear.( not the miners them selfs …though a small percentage did hit it rich )
This era of prosperity brought about new metropolitan cites and a whole highly intricate society within the whole push regarding the Gold Rush experience in this country ….
 
I use this example as a mental tool to deal with my frustrations at my own personal failure to launch .
 
How is that example any different what happened back then compared to today ? 
 
it really isn't …
 
The Gold Rush of Yesteryear or The Music Business  of today 
 
flip a coin cuzz it ain't really no different ..to me at least 
 
I hitched my dream on panning for musical Gold using a guitars fretboard and every Mofo in the world is looking to outfit me along my musical journey with every possible tool I may need to strike it rich 
BTW, people that know me well , know better than to try to sell me a Jack A$$ because I already am considered one depending on who you ask 
Now , I'm OK supporting the companies and buying the tools I need ( or think I need ) ….a lot of smart people that play used their brains to find a way to generate a livelihood and provide a valuable service …..
Got no beef w that …..
 
The thing is after peeling away all the layers of my own personal artichoke of denial …
I have come to the conclusion that I absolutely don't need anything more than my acoustic guitar , my dog and a good spot outdoors to be perfectly happy doing music playing for the birds chirping away in the tree tops  …
if thats as good as it will ever get for me fine , but i't ain't gonna stop me from trying to connect and take it to a whole different level
 
….you know I still got the dream ….
 
 it's all good , 
 
Kenny
 

Hi,
 
First of all, don't think you are the only one who gets depressed about music. I have gotten so sick of LA BS at times I shoved the whole lot in the corner and considered selling all of it.
 
Then I hear something that catches my ear and I have to drag out the guitar or set down at the piano and play something. I have long ceased getting angry about money issues and music. I play because I want too and I may be for hire but I am not for sale. I have played a lot of free gigs because I would rather do that than be angry about being offered $100 bucks to drive fifty miles one way to some bar to play. 
 
I also do other things so music does not define me. When I get fed up with the crap that goes on in the music business I go fishing or go fly my airplane or go drive my buddy's tractor at his farm.
 
I also sometimes find when I get depressed with music and feel nobody is paying any attention to stuff I do it is because I have refused to get off my butt and get better at something I know I need to learn.
 
It is my business to create music and it is none of my business what other people think about what I create. I hope they like it, and it always feels good to get positive feedback.
 
Lighten up and take a break, and when you feel better, then you can make a decision about 

"give up on music all together"

 
Cheers,
 
Billy

Never give up what is part of you. I have learned not to have any expectations from making music except how it makes me feel when I make it. I don't care if anyone listens to what I have written or am playing. I love when my music gives someone pleasure. That's what it's there for. If no one cares it has nothing to do with me
 
P.S. Save your money and buy something YOU want with it. There's no need to play for a crowd when you can play for yourself. I have my own little world where I can play till my heart is full and content. Then I don't hit the "save button". Unless I want to impress Bapu

Can I push the helpful on all your posts here?

Jarsve
Thanks guys! I'll try to stick to it. Maybe buying that amp is what I need to feel joy while playing home. And give the F to those that give me the F. Lol.

Sure if you got the money to buy the amp comfortably go ahead and just buy it ….
You may feel good for a while and you are actually investing in yourself by doing that ….
it is not a magic fix all but you can ride the wave until the honeymoon is over ….
then when you decide to go out and play live again , you will still have the amp 
 
Kenny

I am setting myself up to provide custom guitar lessons online if you need. Text and soon audio/video.
 
However, more importantly, if you ever get bummed out you can message me whenever. I consider you a friend at this point.
 
Cheers.
 
Edit: and that one riff you provided me for Kjerlighet (which you said you played yourself) was very heavy and well performed. You got chops already. Any metal band would be lucky to have you chugging out some rhythms.

I think all the Line 6 amps have a headphone jack. In quiet hours use the cans. Modelling amps are capable of huge tones at low volumes so you are going to be fine. W Rock On W